the cereal killer

2011-07-12T13:21:00.004+07:00

2011

2011-01-03T19:43:00.004+07:00

just to let you know that i'm not abandoning this blog,

i will update really soon.

with a new upcoming project for 2011

checked resolutions:

2010 resolutions

1. ~~survive high school.~~

2. ~~leave my second home. a place i've gone nearly all day time to for the last 14 years.~~

3. ~~and eventually leaving my first home too, because i'm going to leave the city :')~~

4.~~watch toy story 3, alice in wonderland, and ALL top notch movies there will be~~

5. ~~see KOC live performance!!~~

6. lose weight -__-

7. ~~read good books~~

8. travel somewhere nice

9. ~~have my fun with friends. any friends.~~

10. basically, be a better person.

holiday resolutions:

1. ~~bikin SIM!!!!!!!! gila ya udah dari umur 17 sampe skrg ga kesampean.~~

2. ~~selesein yearbook... amin amin amin.~~

3. ~~motivate myself. you're leaving jakarta in august, for god's sakes. :'(~~

4. ~~keliling jakarta pake busway. anak jakarta masa blm pernah ke pasar senen wkwk. destination: kota tua, pasar senen, dufan, jalan surabaya (optional). any suggestion?~~

5. ~~draw more. decorate stuffs.~~

6. ~~read something nice.~~

7. ~~watch tv series. scrubs, how i met your mother, chuck, the office~~

8. spend a lot lot lot lot lot time with my friends... I DEMAND SLEEPOVER GUYZ.

9. best summer ever, together with my best friends, like we had last year

noice

Heartbeat

2010-08-31T21:12:00.003+07:00

well after about two weeks beginning my new life, the university life... i must say i quite enjoy it. it's been a big change for me, living alone, making new friends, adapt to new environment. but hey, i've survived these two weeks :) i'm not saying that it's easy. i've been lacking of quality sleep, tasks has mounted, like woww. it's like there's no day without tasks to be done. notice the plural in the word tasks. i mean, high school was nothing compared to this. sleeping at 3, drawing, rendering, WRITING USING TECHNICAL FONT (yeah rightttt), and i'm sure i can say that i'm sick of seeing lines :p but hey, i'm majoring in architorture.

but, on the other side, i take it as a challenge and i'm enjoying my life here. have been making friends, adapting really well, and living great, alone. (but i'm getting thinner and my room is a total mess :p)

sneak peek:

next post will be pictures of my tasks

Live Long

2010-08-01T20:43:00.003+07:00

new day, new month, and new room.

currently typing from my kos kosan room. well not exactly kos. its more like a dorm :p and i feel like i'm the only one here, since it officially is still holiday season for the students here. yeay for ansosness! gonna see many people there. wish me luck and i can make new friends :)

bye old room. will see you really soon.

1st of august. the day everything changes.

Days to Departure

2010-07-30T18:45:00.005+07:00

Pffttt friday has come, and i currently am back from singapore. oh and yeah, on sunday i'll be going to bandung. okay, just relax. actually i've passed the moment of panicking to just plain letting go. i'm currently realizing that the time has come to leave my safe zone, and go explore a new area, make new zones. or maybe it's just the fact that i've just come back from the perfect getaway. i mean, after coming back from singapore, i've felt at ease, like everything is somehow gonna be okay. and i really hope it will...

well the trip was great. to tell you the truth, i've been to singapore so many times before. i'm not bragging or anything here, but we used to go here a lot when my brother was studying here. but all we ever did was going over and over again to the same place, eat at the same restaurant, staying at the hotel. but on this trip, my mom and i went everywhere :D we went to the jurong, little india, china town, the universal studios, etc. what make it interesting is the fact that we didn't use taxi going to that places. we walked, used the mrt, and i must say, it really was exhausting. godd at some point i couldn't even feel my hip and legs. but it was worth it. it was fun reading all the maps and deciding what way to go, and it really was an adventurous trip :p

and the best part was: i took some photos with my dad's old camera, and it turned out extremely greatt!! i'm talking super awesome :D . well, it's an analog canon camera my dad used to use back in his college days (yeah, this camera is wayy older than me), and it was stored in my dad's closet until i found it. it's an slr camera and i had great time experimenting with it. it's still in a good condition, and my dad stored it so neatly, there's still some lenses, tripod, and the manual in the bagg. god i love my dad at times like these. a little facts: he used to be the chairman of the photography club on his university, and he can develop films. he's actually cool :B anyway, i took this camera everywhere i went (and that's what made my hip ached), and experimented with tips i found on internet. oh, and the price for developing this film... it's insaneee. it's soo expensive, but i must say, it definitely worth the price!

enough blabbering... it's picture timee:

there's many more, but i'm going to save it for later on.

hands down to my dad, who stores the camera neatly and safely.

oh, and about the things my family and i did over and over again in singapore? not that it didn't make me happy, it was my favorite things to do in singapore. it's just i need something new. and here goes:

1. buy discounted sushi in takashimaya on 9. it's soo cheap you'll grab anything like insane.

2. eat at the takashimaya's food court, and always, always eat something from the padang/chinese restaurant

3. eat at the newton circus food centre

4. shopping at ikea, the happiest place on earth. my version.

5. buy some books at kinokuniya/borders

6. shop shop on clothe stores

and yes, we did all that too. and many more :)

p.s. pfftt i forgot to buy the 1$ ice cream from the ice cream stall around orchard. the price is always 1$, it never changed it frightens me. it's like, it's still 1$ after more than 6 years O-o but anyway, i feel remorse leaving singapore without eating it. i always passed the stroll after i ate like a troll, so yeaah i left my tummy no space for eating ittt. and again, i regret it.

That's What They Say

2010-07-24T21:21:00.003+07:00

i'm currently updating from singapore right now... a short getaway before something big changing my life. the start of university life.

can't really believe knowing that some of my friends have already left jakarta... to bandung. and what's more difficult to believe is knowing that it'll be me leaving jakarta in about... 1 week from now? sighhhh still not ready to move on. but i know i have to, and i know i will :')

if i can make it here, i can make it anywhere.

Your Tokugawa Smile

2010-06-27T20:04:00.003+07:00

hello... sorry for not updating for a while. but promise, i'll update really soon, after i scan my film rolls, which is going to be the object of my post later.

i've decided to make a little project... i'm going to follow Keri Smith's 100 ideas to spice up my art life, not like it's that colorful before, but yeah. it's interesting. not sure of when to start, but i will start it!

moving on, i'm not going to post any picture of my graduation and prom. well at least not now. i'm not really in the mood. but for teasers, it was really really fun :)

so what i'm going to share here... look what i've got from sushigroove. me and my friend asked for an extra mayo, and here's a picture of what we received

it was really cute, it brightens my mood. and look how tasty the sushi was. so mouth watering. i'm craving for some sushi right now :(

that's it for now, ttyl!

If I Saw You in Heaven

2010-05-30T14:41:00.002+07:00

cheers for holidays i've got a LOT of time to spare.

to start this post, i'm going to list this, just in case if i've forgotten about this, be nice and remind me please :)

holiday resolutions:

1. bikin SIM!!!!!!!! gila ya udah dari umur 17 sampe skrg ga kesampean.

2. selesein yearbook... amin amin amin.

3. motivate myself. you're leaving jakarta in august, for god's sakes. :'(

4. keliling jakarta pake busway. anak jakarta masa blm pernah ke pasar senen wkwk. destination: kota tua, pasar senen, dufan, jalan surabaya (optional). any suggestion?

5. draw more. decorate stuffs.

6. read something nice.

7. watch tv series. scrubs, how i met your mother, chuck, the office

8. spend a lot lot lot lot lot time with my friends... I DEMAND SLEEPOVER GUYZ.

9. best summer ever, together with my best friends, like we had last year

xxxxxxxx

Hello, Hello

2010-05-23T17:12:00.001+07:00

ok, may is going to be over soon. real fast. no wayyy i had too much pleasure lazying around and waking up around 8 because school's over. and college it's not until august, so got to appreciate the time i have noww.

well maybe the reason i love may so much is just the fact that it's the month of my birthday. not that i enjoy the day of getting older, but i love it because for a day, it feels like it is my day. well it's not like the entire universe will notice, but eventually, some notice. and that's the best feeling, the feeling of realizing that some people do care about you.

my 18th birthday starts ordinarily (only that it's the first birthday where i stayed up all night), and people wishing me happy birthday all that stuffs. and it's no longer 17, so i thought that nothing special will happen, but somehow ~~i secretly wished my friends will come to surprise me.~~ but noo, a friend asked me to go to the mall and watch a movie, and i was like, "....." so i said i'm not in the mood, and i said no, i chose to stayed home. but i felt a little bit sad, because apparently my friends had an engagement on their own, and my parents have to work late, so we didn't go somewhere fancy for my birthday dinner. honestly, i was extremely sad. well, as you can see on the earlier posts.

but... i was wroongg. at night, when i was watching tv with my brother, i borrowed his phone and looked around, but he thought i was checking his inbox, and he blurted "what are you doing? now you ruined your own surprise!" and, "?!?!?!??!?!?!" i was so happy i literally danced around! and sure enough, in about 5 minutes later, two of my friend came, and they ordered me to come down in a hurry, and there they weree! a lot of them, i even didn't expect that many would comee!!

and what's even more special, they made the cake on their own. good job guyz. for someone who's not a big fan of cakes, i like it a lot <3

i wished for my friends acceptance in UI, and many of them are accepted! i have smart friends :')

yeah, it's that many. this surprise was excellently organized.

even though it's a little bit late, and some of you may not read this, i just want to say thank you. i feel really blessed to have friends like you, and my gratitudes are beyond words. you guys, are awesome. it's not like you fail on surprising me, heck i was really surprised when i knew you guys would come, and there's a lot of you!

and so, we may began our friendship from high school (though some of you has colored my life way way before high school), but i hope we'll stay friends until we're grannies and grandpas... :'D

18 and ready to ramble

2010-05-07T22:01:00.001+07:00

scratch that earlier post.

i'm 18 and i feel very blessed. :')

18

2010-05-07T00:01:00.002+07:00

i'm 18, and i don't feel any different.

have a nice day people

xxx

Sympathy is Overrated

2010-05-06T19:07:00.002+07:00

i don't really know where all this negativity came from, but, just 5 hour away from my birthday, i feel like shit.

just don't treat me like joke.

and i try not to expect anything too much.

what's with the mood swingsss :'(

Burial

2010-05-04T13:04:00.005+07:00

"but from her perspective, what we usually take for granted once again becomes stunningly beautiful"

left without nothing to do, (okay, lying here. i've got some things to do, but too lazy to do it), i've been reading comics online. well to be exact, i've been reading Aria. my first encounter with Aria has almost been a year. i first read it when i was having the most magnificent trip yet, the euro trip with my friend. and without exaggerating, words can't describe that trip. even magnificent doesn't quite cover it. but anyway, a friend left it on her case, and i've got nothing to do at that time, so i grabbed it, read it, and i mocked at it. lol. but long story short, when i read it over and over again, i find it quite interesting, and every chapter it has moral story in it. and from what i've read, the most important message that i've learned in this series is how not to take everything for granted.

i've just realized, how i've been taking so many things for granted. and i'm going to focus my point of story about friends. especially my friends. for 3 years of my high school time, i just assumed that high school would come to an end in about a very long length of time, and so i missed lots of opportunities of spending more time with them. there were even times of when i just wished i could just skipped high school. and now what? my wish now is to pause, and rewind everything again. i've always took my friends and moments i spent with them for granted, like those moments were just there, like it's not that special. and now after i've organized my old photos, i've just come to realized, that 'not special moment', was something that could not be repeated again. and how selfish am i to took it as if it was a moment not special enough to be cherished.

and from now on, i'm trying to make every second counts. and try not to take everything for granted, and thank everyone for everything they have done to me. and thank you friends, for we officially survived high school, together ♥

after a long and tiring photoshoot. another moments to be cherished ;)

oh, and have i told you i'm a softball player now? HA. just kidding. this is just a random shot of someone, and hey, she looks like me, a lott. for a second, i thought "when did i play softball?" . ok, random.

p.s. not going to waste this looong holiday, i'm going swimming with my friend this evening. xxx

p.p.s. not longer than a week, i won't be able to sing i'm 17 going on 18 anymore, for i'll be 18 on 7th!!!!!! ok, nervous. i'm getting old. deep breath. hopefully i'll be wiser, but stay young, on the heart, and on the outside. ;D

2010-04-22T23:13:00.005+07:00

long time without any new post, so here it is~

so im not going to update with details of what ive been through, not that interesting anyway :\ but to cut it short, exams are over, and holiday is here!

and anyway, getting to the main subject. well, because of this holiday, ive got nothing to do actually, so i've been really into reminiscing mode. you know, remembering all the stuffs that happened. and when i was listening to my ipod, i realized, some songs, makes me go back into the past. so here it is, another list:

(and it's not arranged by date, so... the timeline got a little bit mixed up)

1. Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service

cause when I looked up into your eyes
it didn't hurt at all.
be still my heart

it actually reminds me of times of when i realized that he was something that i could never get ahold of. like he was very far away, and i was still right here. cheesy i know, but it's true. i was being so creative at that time, i actually made an illustration that i can be proud of! heh call it heart brokenly productive.

2. Wonderwall - Oasis

ok, this song is so timeless, im sure everybody must be reminded of something upon hearing this songs. as for me, it reminded me of sitting in the car. whether im going somewhere near like to my friend's house or to the mall, or somewhere far like bandung, it reminds me of times where i thought, it doesn't matter where my destination is, it's the journey that matters. at that times, i sometimes wish time would stop so i can stay in the car, alone with my thoughts.

3. Heard 'Em Say - Kanye West ft Adam Levine

okay, this totally reminded me of times when i used to have this bathroom spray and it smelled really good, and when it was combined with the after smell of my shampoo and soap, it the smell became extremely good. ok, for the record, i turn on songs when i'm having a bath, so that explains ;)

4. Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap

why'd you have to be so cute, it's impossible to ignore you. come on! this song will totally remind everyone of their crush/bf! and in my case, it definitely makes me remember of my crush, back when i was like.. in junior high? well for the record, he changed so much i don't even recognized him anymore :] and we don't talk anymore too

5. I Miss You - Blink 182, Me Myself and I - Beyonce

ok, weird combination, but it's one of the songs in my playlist back when i was in elementary!! god. these songs was really abused upon times in midnight when i couldn't sleep and i needed something to distract my mind of things. not that personal, but still~

6. So Yesterday - Hillary Duff

again, so elementary stuffs. sang it over and over again with a friend back then. i used to remember all the lyrics of the songs in metamorphosis!! (for those who don't know, it's hillary duff's album) i actually bought the cd. weird choice, but come on, who didn't love hillary duff as lizzie mc guire? i certainly do! (notice the tense, until now, i still do)

7. Sign - Mr. Children

an ost of a certain japanese dorama!! times of when i'm such a fanatic of all japanese things. anime, manga, culture, dorama, j-pop, j-rock, you name it. it was times when i named all the pictures i found with "CUTE NARI" or "you smexy thing" . well it has stopped anyway, but it was really good times. and i'm really sad when my computer crashed and all my treasure is lost :'((

meh im tired. and before it goes on and on to the point where it becomes stupid, i must stop now. so call it a part 1 !

oh, and a photo so it's not going to be an all text post

it was taken when we were in a taxi, after taking a busway on a rush hour! ok, it maybe is not that amusing for you to read, but it really was to us. haha, actually my friends look waay in the back in that picture, so yeah :p

2010 ; 100%!!

2010-03-21T17:42:00.003+07:00

3 years of hard working, determined in 5 days, the longest week ever of national exams.

i know i will draw the other eye of daruma soon.

2010 LULUS 100% AMINN!!

2010-03-08T19:25:00.002+07:00

I REALLY MISS DRAWING DOODLES IN CLASS!!

back then, i used to have the time AND the mind to do some silly drawings in class. not listening to what the teachers said, drawing what comes in mind.

now that calculations and formulas burdening, i just can't find the energy to do it anymore.

oh how i miss drawing, the way it used to be,

2 years ago, when i'm still preoccupied in my own world

i just can't wait for the holiday season to come. i've got so many ideas in mindddd

Trough the Looking Fisheye

2010-02-20T22:02:00.003+07:00

full view would be very much appreciatedddd

the best of my first and second batch of using fisheye! i must say, i'm very satisfied with the result~ lomo pictures are sure way better to be seen in series like these, rather than seeing it one by one.

and i'm not satisfied with the long-multi exposure feature yet. i haven't had the time to stroll around at night in places with many flashes of light. damn 12th year stuffz D: so yes, can't wait for the 3rd batch~~~

:'-(

2010-02-08T00:23:00.004+07:00

have you ever faced parts of life, where you just want to click the fast forward button, and let everything moves real fast you won't feel a thing?

like facing hard questions on try outs

like at some points where going to school is just plain hard

like moments where you got your heart broken in a matter of second

like times where you're scared of facing the future

like times where you're in doubt of what to do

and when you feel like it, you really want to say skip, and there, you just skipped it.

i'm facing it now. and it feels like shit.

well, here it goes. skip.

Heartbreak Warfare

2010-02-01T19:29:00.007+07:00

mmm excuse me for not updating for a while. mind you, school has just been keeping me busy AND tired all the time, and it really is. whenever i got home from school, i always wanted to get some sleep, but failed all the time :| it's like, my eyes were really tired, but my mind was busy thinking many things, and thus i just couldn't sleep. meh, it's the most tiring feeling of all. but anyway, only 3 more months of these torturing yet what will be very memorable moments of high school, and hopefully, i'm off duty.

anyway, speaking of having a life, i don't really have a life. as i've said before, it's been a tiring days. but still....

i've bought the long awaited fisheye cameraaa! remember what i've said about wanting to buy a fuji instax or polaroid? well, i've changed my mind. it's becoming to be too trending here, so yeah... with all the polaroid to be reproduced in mid 2010, everyone's going to have it. i'm supporting the impossible project, but i've lost my interest in it. so, instead i bought myself a lomo fisheye 2! i know lomo is a huge trend in indonesia, but i'm still satisfied :D
attended my friends' birthday dinner at pancious. i ordered fettucini with duck, and we shared the dessert, because clearly, with such big portion, no one could handle a plate alone. :)
oh, and it was right when the match between persija and whatsthename was held and yes, the traffic was horrible. talking about it makes me still a bit pissed of because of the behavior of the supporters. how the hell holding a world cup 2022 in indonesia is still in the picture??
look what i've found in my bag~ i don't know if you find it as amusing as i do, but to see all these cinema tickets, all in studio 2, and all of them are in one bag, makes me smile :) and mmm, for those who wonder, i throw everything away in my bag. AND I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IMAGINARIUM OF DR PARNASSUS IN THEATER!!!!!!!
and take a good look of what i have been, am, and will be facing. wish us all the best of luck! national exam, here we come. >:]
last but not least, my current favorite snack. i usually don't go well with sweet snack, but it's really addictive. hell yeah richeese!

Not Just Anybody

2010-01-22T23:39:00.004+07:00

to be frank, after seeing this postcard (which was around mid 2009), i've always thought deep inside, that i knew, somewhere, someday, KoC will come again to Indonesia, and perform live.

and now, it's coming true. they'll come on March 27th to Jakarta. the day of weekend, right after the national exam. i know it's not just a coincidence, it's more than that.

so God, please, let my senior year ends with the best possible ending there is.

(dan gossipnya mika mau dateng. cihi sekaliiiiii ;D)

oh dan akhirnya, the longest week ever, tryout 3 yg setan ini, berakhir. horeeeeeeeeee.

Welcoming 2010

2010-01-03T22:41:00.002+07:00

had a blast in ending 2009. trying to keep the spirits up! pictures later~

so, instead of posting about what my new year's resolutions got to be like, i think i'm going to prove you on how much i love the simpsons and post this hilarious video i've found in youtube. (and wow, safari considers youtube as a word)

therefore, i welcome 2010 by presenting you...

The Singhsons

not only this is entertaining, you can find some smart jokes if you watch it really closely

thumbs up!

and uh... will post my resolutions later on.

tomorrow's school day. as much as i hate school, god knows i'm going to miss it terribly someday :')

WTF!

2009-12-29T22:51:00.004+07:00

ADA BAYI TIKUS TADI LEWAT DI KAMAR GWWWW!

jadi2 ceritanya, gw kan lagi gelesotan gt di lantai main laptop, tiba2 oh shit ada tikus lewat melenggak lenggok gt ke arah kamar mandi. shocked, gw teriak manggil bokap, dan beralih pekerjaan lah bokap gw sementara jadi pawang tikus. setelah kasak kusuk sedikit, dengan bantuan tempat sampah, tertangkaplah si tikus. dan ternyataaaa tikusnya lucu. AS IN CUTENESS. waaaa mesti liat:

liat kann kecil2 imut gt~ tdnya udah mau dibuang aja ke luar, tp karena dia begitu kecil, ga tega akhirnya mau dikasih asupan gizi yg baik dan lengkap dulu sebelom dia pergi. alhasil gw kasih keju dan ikan pindang, dan akan gw lepas dia saat pagi. KARENA, di luar terdengar suara kucing garong. IT'S NOT GONNA SURVIVE.

dan btw, gw jadi merasa dia remy dan gw linguini. OHMYGOD. deja vu banget ga sih kyk pas scene yg di deket sungai itu, pas linguini nyekap dia di botol kaca, bedanya sekarang gw pake tempat sampah. I AM LINGUINI IN REAL LIFE. (terbawa imajinasi berlebih)

btw, INI BUKAN KARENA KAMAR GW JOROK. jadi, kamar gw emg kyk ada lubang cahaya yg nyambung ke atap, dan dari lubang itulah dia masuk. alhasil, gw memutuskan untuk tidak tidur di kamar gw malam ini, karena gw takut induk nya nyariin dia. sekian.

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tidak sampai 15 menit setelah post ini terbit, tikusnya kabur.

never trust a mouse. ever. ever.....

dan sekarang dia menggentayangi gw somewhere.... over the rainbow

lalallaa~~

2009-12-29T19:25:00.004+07:00

blame the holiday, i've got nothing to do these days. potato couching is never overrated. should've gone somewhere nice with friends, but meh. no complains though. everything is perfectly goood |D

it's going to be my last new year as a student. god bless me. 2010, be nice with everybody, ok?

the thing that i've spent my holiday time with: recipes.

yes i've been cooking~~

1. salmon with hollandaise sauce

2. caramel flan (the dessert i love the most during misbud <33>

3. chicken cordon bleu (except it's not deep fried. healthy.)

next up: cupcakes.

and what i've been watching: skins. nicholas hoult is purrrfect. but i lost the dvd AND i'm halfway the 2nd season. damn.

and what i've been obsessing: heels. fuji instax. year book.

~~~

B B But

2009-12-29T19:16:00.003+07:00

maybe today will be filled with my last posts in 2009~

welcoming 2010 with anxiety but (surprisingly) great enthusiasm!

so, my new list, in 2010, hopefully i'll....

1. survive high school.

2. leave my second home. a place i've gone nearly all day time to for the last 14 years.

3. and eventually leaving my first home too, because i'm going to leave the city :')

4. watch toy story 3, alice in wonderland, and ALL top notch movies there will be

5. see KOC live performance!!

6. lose weight -__-

7. read good books

8. travel somewhere nice

9. have my fun with friends. any friends.

10. basically, be a better person.

i know i'll see myself in a place where i want to be. sooner. never later.

.

2009-12-25T13:36:00.001+07:00

HYPOCRITE!

that's you alright. :|

And You Make Me Talk

2009-12-18T23:20:00.004+07:00

i really have to find a proper place to make some random rants happening in my life lately, butttttt until i find it, let's just do some ranting here!

-mamawwwwwww nana is pure awesomenessss (who the hell uses this word? i did). i'm talking about a manga here. nana the manga. it's been a really long time since last time i'm drooling over guys from animes and mangas (i know. i SUCK. big time). those good old days. those were the times where i actually bought cds of animes where i can actually can download them from free, as if the ones i bought were the originals. but as time went by i downloaded some and yess my ranting of animes and mangas became a lot crazier. and now, i'm reminiscing something i've watched a long long time ago. it's NANA~~~!! i watched the anime first actually, and i thought it's too awesomeee! the story is (quite) unpredictable and it's well written as if the story just flows wonderfully. i've always liked stories that were told in a flash back way. and not to forget to mention the male characters are hottt. now that i'm reading the manga, it's wayy better than the anime, even though it has the exactly same story, but it's way more intense than the anime. and yesss. REN IS HOT. and so does nobu. dasfhadohfiadsofhadflakdf. i'm reading it on one manga and god knows i'll be very mad if nana's project is halted.

-and just fyi, i got accepted! :))))) thanks for all your kind supporttsss. truth to be told, i'm a little bit shock with everyone's reaction. you're all toooo kinddd. and i'm trying my best to fulfill my promises i made, you can see from the last entry. i've cut my hair! it's too short, but oh well.

and i just can't forget your way of congratulating me. it may not be any importance to you, but it made me do this :))))) just thinking about it |)

2009-12-18T20:11:00.003+07:00

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

cute boyyyyyyy.

i'm sure you must've seen this

but i adore the beatles moreeeee. D:

2009-12-17T07:13:00.002+07:00

can't waittt

i've got the biggest crush on woody since... i don't even knoww

another can't wait

My Heart's Beating Like a Jungle Drum

2009-12-15T14:28:00.005+07:00

kalo iya, gw akan

- puasa 5 hari

- sedekah 50k ke kotak yg dibagiin tiap jumat

- sujud syukur (even though i don't know how)

- traktir orang

kalo iya atau ga, gw akan

- potong rambut.

kalo ga, gw akan

- tetap semangat.

AMIN IYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

i promise i'll be grateful and think positive, whatever the result may be

but i definitely want the positive one

2009-12-14T21:30:00.000+07:00

i'm the world's greatest.

2009-12-14T18:13:00.002+07:00

lord knows it wouldn't be my first time, but please.

Re Tart

2009-12-10T20:34:00.002+07:00

i support the hand washing stuff,

but this is just plain retard lol

awa awa awawa

washi washi wa

kyu~ kyu!

from now on, let's wash our hands before eating

or else this creature will come to you D:

2009-12-08T19:28:00.001+07:00

brengsek lo setan

i hope you'll be burned in hell

and rot till you can't even feel yourself anymore

mati lo.

Help!

2009-12-07T20:07:00.006+07:00

The eyes of darumas are blank when sold. The eyes are means to keep track of goals or big tasks and motivate them to work to the finish. The recipient of the doll fills in one eye upon setting the goal, then the other upon fulfilling it. In this way, every time they see the one-eyed Daruma, they recall the goal. One explanation how this custom started says that in order to motivate Daruma-san to grant your wish, you promise to give him full sight once the goal is accomplished.

KETERIMA DI PERGURUAN TINGGI YANG DIINGINKAN

100% MURID LULUS SMA

ANGKATAN 13; AL-IZHAR 2010

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But She's Been Gone Since That Summer

2009-12-04T06:27:00.003+07:00

ok post sangat singkat dan padat karena mengingat skrg 6.28 AM dan gw belom mandi atau apapun padahal skrg hari jumat, which is harusnya gw sekolahhh tp saya malas setengah mati. deep down gw pengen telat supaya ntar ga ikut jam pelajaran pertama, dan tebak ya jam pelajaran pertama gw apa :p

so, this one pops up from my mind due to my recent discovering of blue's true sex (as in blue's clues). and yes, for those of you who already knew and those of you who haven't known yet, blue's a girl. yes. she's a girl. and maybe some may say, he has a girlfriend! it's magenta! or does that mean magenta's a boy? well the answer is no, they both are girl. and they are girl friends.

but what i really meant to say is, why do we differentiate other's sex by color? why do we always have to determine that boy's blue, and girl's a pink? why do we have to say that pink is so girlie? color is free. it can be used for every single being, without any prejudice statement of what for who. boys have their own rights to be colored pink, and so do girls. it's a free world. as long we don't disturb other people's life, boys can wear pink or purple and girls can wear black every single day.

Meh

2009-11-29T22:19:00.000+07:00

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Like a Ride Like a Ride Oh!

2009-11-29T21:00:00.003+07:00

a quick update, just to let you know i'm still alive and will not post some pictures with quotes or videos that yeah, maybe quite entertaining, but doesn't really show what am i feeling right now. so here goes, (not that this may entertain you, but meh, why should i care)

1. senior year is here, i'm stepping on it just right now, and yeah, it sucks. not that high school sucks. senior year does. never ending studying and so what if i'm complaining right now, at least i complain AND try my best at the same time. even though at some point i felt very fed up with all these situations and i stopped trying. i don't even care about my grades anymore. grades don't count anymore, since early acceptance form has already been sent (AND GOD KNOWS HOW ANXIOUS I FEEL ABOUT THIS), and yes, SENIOR YEAR GRADES DON'T COUNT. it's like what important is i passed the standard, i don't need stellar report cards anymore. HOORAY!

2. AND WHY THE HELL ARE YOU IGNORING ME??? i mean, i was standing right there, talking with a bunch of YOUR friends, and you just sit there didn't even try to approach us. LIKE WHYYY. you were clearly listening, because you tried to comment some of our talking from FAR, and WHY YOU DIDN'T EVEN ADSF@#@#$FAD. and when everybody is ready to go somewhere, you stayed behind, and decided to go home. @#$DF?!?!

excuse these emo talking, but yeah, tomorrow there's a chem test, and you know the rest.

So Why Don't We?

2009-11-24T19:17:00.003+07:00

Jack Twist

You are too much for me Ennis, you sonofawhoreson bitch!

I wish I knew how to quit you.

Ennis Del Mar

Well, why don't you? Why don't you just let me be? It's because of you Jack, that I'm like this! I'm nothin'... I'm nowhere... Get the fuck off me! I can't stand being like this no more, Jack.

2009-11-21T22:53:00.001+07:00

aduh jadi dokter aja deh lama2, capek :|

All Together Now

2009-11-09T20:02:00.001+07:00

But Your Life is Just a One Big Mess

2009-10-31T19:52:00.003+07:00

the bed i'd sleep forever in :)

waaaaa mau banget nyelip di antara merekaaaa.

Homesick

2009-10-27T21:27:00.002+07:00

When people laugh and ask me, what do i see in you, i simply tell them,

"Everything you don't"

and that's it.

via I Can Read

Action Sampling! (I)

2009-10-21T19:21:00.005+07:00

these are some photos from my action sampler.

endjoy. :)

btw busway, gw udh milih gw akan beli fuji instax. SUATU SAAT NANTI, PASTI! :D

Take Me Out, Tonight

2009-10-21T18:02:00.003+07:00

to know that you notice what is so wrong to me and you even bother to ask, "what happened?" make me happy.

and even though we end up arguing, it's okay.

after all, you care about me. and that's what really counts. :')

Long Long Ago

2009-10-18T22:17:00.004+07:00

OKOK EDIT!

setelah browsing cukup lama dan mendistract gw dari yg seharusnya gw lakukan, akhirnya ada 3 item yg gw temukan.

pertimbangan 1 - polaroid one step close up - Rp 650.000

+ murah

+ merk polaroid asli

+ flash

+ bentuk indah

- film nya entah dapet drmn

- belinya pun entah di mana (haha online sih)

- kalo rusak wasalam deh benerinnya

pertimbangan 2 - diana + instant back - Rp 1.050.000

+ dapet diana nya, dpt instant nya

+ film nya sangat jelas beli di mana

+ kalo rusak ada yg benerin hehe

+ bentuknya indah HAHA

- ga ada flash, beli nambah 750k lagi.

- gw ga yakin hasilnya menyenangkan 100% karena gw ga bs pake diana

- hasil2 foto di internet terlihat indah KARENA ada wawawiwi aksesorisnya

pertimbangan 3 - fuji instax camera - Rp 1.400.000

+ film jelas beli di mana

+ hasil nya juga jelas kyk polaroid biasa

+ bentuknya lucu juga :p

+ FLASH!

- harga mahal, soalnya kyk diana instant back, tanpa diana -___-

- minus nya hanya 1 sebenarnya

jujur sih lebih ke diana atau fuji, dan bahkan sekarang gw lebih ke yg fuji, gara2 diana ga ber flash. kan ga enak ga bisa di foto2 tempat gelap. tp kan katanya film nya polaroid udh akan diproduksi 2010, jadi... ga tau deh. haha. dan lagi... biar udah ada film blm tentu polaroid masih gampang dicari.

tapi... tapi... hahaha. gmn2?

DAN BTW BANGET YA, berasa udah punya duitnya aja hahahaha :p

Say It!

2009-10-18T18:11:00.003+07:00

trik biar bisa nabung:

ada goal barang mahal yang worth it biar kyk ada perasaan sayang duit, mendingan duit nya dipake beli barang itu.

oleh karena itu,

tiba2 pengen polaroid. (haha alasan)

MAKA, apakah beli diana instant back + worth it? atau mending beli polaroid biasa? :|

Who Says I Can Not Go?

2009-10-18T10:44:00.003+07:00

"Dad?"

"Yeah?"

"I think I made a mistake turning down Brown."

"No shit."

"I don't know what I'm going to do now. The Tal thing, you and Mom and Caroline were right, I can't do that again. But now I don't know what to do."

"I'll tell you what you can do. Go to Brown next year. Your old man took the card you posted turning down the admissions offer out of our mailbox after you left the house this morning. he replaced it with an acceptance and a deposit check."

I should be grateful, but I am indignant. "YOU HAD NO RIGHT! THAT IS LIKE A PERSONAL INVASION OF PRIVACY! AND THAT IS A FEDERAL OFFENSE TO TAMPER WITH THE MAIL!"

Dad chuckles. "Too fucking bad. Don't be home too late." And he hangs up on me.

Maybe my dad is a fuckin' corporate hippie, but I really love that old bastard.

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist.

Do I Know You?

2009-10-16T05:40:00.005+07:00

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting, by the world forgot .

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard"

Even If I Could Hear It

2009-10-12T22:02:00.004+07:00

sekarang mau ada yang bilang, gw pelajar SMA, gw capek sekolah, gw capek belajar terus ga selse2, dan kadang apa yg gw pelajarin sering ga dipake juga ntar (ga kadang juga sih. apa coba guna belajar matriks, selain melatih cara berpikir sm ketelitian? mmm. i wonder), gw cmn bilang, jalanin aja. mau susahnya kyk apa, mau ngeboseninnya kyk apa, mau banyak tugasnya kyk apa.

kyk pas TK, ada aja pasti yang berpikir, gw pengen cepet gede, pengen ngerasain aja gt bisa jalan2 sendiri, keluar rumah gt aja, tapi begitu gede, yang kepikir adalah seneng ya jadi anak TK, ga ada masalah, kerjaannya cuman main, makan, tidur, napas, sama paling masalahnya cuman diomelin nyokap gara2 ga mau minum obat atau dimusuhin temen gara2 ga mau gantian main balok. kyknya pas TK, kepikiran, kapan sih gw gede? cepet aja dong. dan tiba2 skrg udh SMA aja, dan malah diikuti dengan keinginan, balik dong jadi anak TK.

dan ternyata, sama kyk sekarang di mana gw pengen balik lagi ke TK, i'm pretty sure there will be times when I say, "gw kangen masa SMA, masa di mana masalahnya cuman pr numpuk (yang ternyata ga segitunya dibandingin tugas kuliah tampaknya), ulangan besok, presentasi di kelas, sm temen-temen yang lagi ngeselin."

gw cmn mau bilang, jalanin aja deh mau kyk apapun itu juga. mau takut juga ga ada gunanya, pasti bakal kejadian juga, suka ga suka, cepat atau lambat. yang jelas, i'll try to live my life to the fullest, and try to enjoy every second of it.

Is Against The Odds

2009-10-11T14:08:00.002+07:00

Will someone please call a surgeon

Who can crack my ribs

and repair this broken heart

That you're deserting

for better company

i will never forget this :(

Please Someone Call A Surgeon

2009-10-04T15:47:00.003+07:00

not only it's not enough to be accepted. you have to stand out and be the best.

and it's not enough to graduate with good scores. you have to leave impressions.

and it certainly is not enough to survive in work. you have to live in, and make the best out of it.

i don't want to be forgotten.

One, Two, One Two Three

2009-10-03T08:34:00.002+07:00

I don't know, i just don't know.

i want to be, where i want to be

i want to be, who i want to be

is it really what i want?

is it really like what i've imagined?

now i have these feelings of uncertainty

or should i call it doubts. dang i really hate that word.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. :'(

I Don't Even Know

2009-09-29T19:55:00.001+07:00

taken from my recent trips to west europe. such an unforgettable experience :')

Where Have You Been?

2009-09-26T23:35:00.004+07:00

i love the feeling that i experience when i'm on the road, seeing the scenery passed me by, as if i've even forgotten my purpose of being there.

sometimes i secretly wish that road would never end and i'm stuck forever in the car, alone with my own thoughts.

but it only happened when i'm being melancholic, which is exactly what i am right now. |)

Buon giorno, Principessa!

2009-09-26T12:41:00.003+07:00

You are such a good boy. You sleep now. Dream sweet dreams. Maybe we are both dreaming. Maybe this is all a dream, and in the morning, Mommy will wake us up with milk and cookies. Then, after we eat, I will make love to her two or three times. If I can.

Guido Orifice - Life is Beautiful

such a sweet story but a sad one indeed :(

it's very touching seeing guido tries his best not to frighten his son and illustrates the holocaust as if they're in a game where only the winners get the tank and out from that camp.

i really love guido here. how can you not love him? he's smart, an optimists, he tells jokes, he makes you laugh, he's unpredictable, and above all, he's loving. <3

watch it, and you'll know exactly what i mean. (though i think you must have watched it once. i know i'm late D: )

You Lost Control and You Lost Your Tongue

2009-09-25T09:47:00.003+07:00

And then, instead of glaring at each other, the two girls smiled.

It was a strange smile, and neither of them knew what the other meant by it.

Was Blair smiling because she had won the boy in the end and stamped over Serena's party shoes? Because—as usual—she had gotten her way?

Was Serena smiling because she felt uncomfortable and nervous? Or was she smiling because she hadn't stooped to Blair's petty level of spreading nasty rumors and playing with Nate's mind?

Or was it a sad smile because their friendship is over?

Maybe they were smiling because they both knew deep down that no matter what happened next—no matter what boy the fell in our out of love with, or what clothes they wore, or what their SAT scores were, or which college they got into—they both would be all right.

After all, the world they lived in took care of its own.

You Make Me Happy When Skies Are Grey

2009-09-21T23:32:00.001+07:00

CUTEST.GUY.EVER

What do you play?

Guess.

Even Through The Fire

2009-09-18T11:02:00.001+07:00

bahhhh. skrg kerjaan gw main ds sm tidur.

kyknya suatu saat gw akan mati sakit jantung karena tidak pernah bergerak D:

Fear Is Where I'm In

2009-09-08T21:52:00.002+07:00

What's Not To Love?

2009-09-06T21:41:00.005+07:00

and why, from all girls you could find, you actually had to choose her?

This is Andy and Nicole. Andy wants to give her a flower that he found in the playground. But Nicole said, "I don't do wildflower," and walks away.

Friend #1 :

"Why do you love her?"

Andy :

"Well... What's not to love?"

Movies that successfully made me cry :

1. The Notebook

2. I Am Sam

3. Kramer vs. Kramer

4. Click

5. Titanic

6. Finding Neverland

sometimes i just love being in the crowd, where i can laugh out loud and shout. but another time, i just hate it, and i need some me time to be alone. i'm weird |D

that's what i felt today, i didn't really feel like talking or do anything.

But I Don't Know How

2009-09-01T17:20:00.003+07:00

here's a little project that i've been doing in my free time. making icons to replace the boring ones, and this THE set. the monster set :) to tell you the truth, i'm actually very happy with the outcome. my personal favorite is

1. the surfing cucumber for safari, which is used for surfing the internet. get the idea?

2. the masked lime for limewire. looks like a robber, because we steal musics through limewire :p

3. the painter for illustrator

the not so interesting part being a senior is i don't really have time to relax anymore. i can't really say i haven't spent some of my time with playing. i mean, come on. right now instead of studying for the upcoming math exam, i'm updating this blog. but the truth is i haven't slept enough these days, and even sundays don't last they way they used to... i really need a long holiday. a really long one.

fasting month is exhausting... it's 5.36 PM now, about 20 minutes to go...

what is so wrong about having an ambition? it's one of so many ways to make you stay focus. what is wrong is being ambitious. because when you're ambitious, you tend to rationalize all things, even they're the wrong ones.

When It's All Over I'll Let You Know

2009-08-24T18:54:00.003+07:00

is having fun with my new macbook :)

wish me the best of luck upon everything that's coming

and i'm picturing myself with a twitter account right now.

"i'm want to watch orphan terribly. care to accompany me?"

"you're such an attention whore. find another guy to screw up"

"i'm feeling indifferent about one of my friend, i don't know why"

"STAY AWAY"

"i Hate school, with capital H. but i'm still not ready to leave it yet"

hmmmph. interesting. but it doesn't really suit me.

will have a better update soon. just a short post to say i'm not dead yet

Tonight is Gonna be a Good Night

2009-08-01T22:24:00.010+07:00

i've lost the will to write lately. i'm not planning to show any pictures of my trip for the past few weeks. i think many people have seen enough of it, and i have something more important to worry about now.... :(

blame it on the fact that i'm having my period these days and that is exactly why i've been on such a terrible mood swing. one time i could go hyper and laugh while saying stupid things and at one point i felt that i just wanted to be alone and refused to talk. and lately i've been feeling really sleepy. like school's starting last week and since it's the last year in high school we've been working hard learning all these stuffs. pfft.

well i've had my worries about life these days. like is this what i've really wanted to do, is this the right path to choose, what do i really want in life? high school is going to be over soon, and i know in just a blink of an eye it's ending. i know my goal in life is just to be happy, i know that i want to be married to someone i love and have children with him, i want it so much that i've made my children's name from now. i know i want to travel the world with him and i want him to be the first one i see in the morning when i wake up, the one who thinks , "God, she's beautiful" when he sees me eventhough my hair is in disarray and i have pimples on my face.

i've been saying i wanted to go to this university to a certain faculty, but i've got my own doubts. can i really do this? in a psychology test i took a few months ago it said that i have difficulties in the spatial ability. i know women have more difficulties in this field rather than men, but still... i want to majored in architecture. it's what architects do everyday. spatial ability is what architects should have in the first place. and i can't even draw a straight line. like, adfadklfh :x

i just read some threads in a forum, discussing about architect stuffs, which is the path i kind of planning to walk to. and it says many discouraging facts about it, whether it's small things like how you'll need to stock yourself with coffee, and you won't need expensive pillows and beds, because you'll have to stay up really late to work on your assignments... drawing and making miniatures, or really big things like it's hard to find jobs for freshly graduate architects, or how the work of architect in indonesia are not very well respected, and it doesn't have a very good prospect to begin with. there's a phrase i remember so well, "susah masuknya, susah keluarnya, susah kerjanya". yeah well, it hurts.

i began to think about the reasons i choose to majored in architecture.
1. first thing first, i like to draw. i really do. it's not i like to draw houses or bridges or anything 3D, but yes, i still like to draw. and to be an architect, it means i'd be doing something that i like, which is drawing, for money.
2. and second, i thought, architect is an ideal job for me. it makes quite ammount of money (that, i know very well, because a successful architect like a father of my friend's can send his 3 children to a private school that costs a lot of money, and still have a luxurious life. hmm.)
3. and i can do the job everywhere i like, office, home, and that makes me feel free too be home whenever i want to. not that free of course, but you get the point. i don't really feel like working 9 to 5 that strictly. i don't want to be trapped in an office that long every day, every week.
4. being an architect, if there's no order, i still can depend on my husband's income, which makes it real good, seeing i'm the wife, i don't have to be the bread winner in my family household, but still i don't have to depend on my husband for money (a lesson well learnt received from my mom. thanks a lot).
5. and lastly, a rather crucial point for me, being an architect faculty graduate, i don't really have to be an architect. judging from what i've seen, an architect faculty graduate can still own an advertising agency, or write a best selling novel, and that's what make it interesting. it still has many prospects of carreer. and i don't really mind to see myself in creative industry world.

i really belive in this phrase, if there's a will there's a way. recently tried to draw straight line without a ruler, and it's still shaky, but i'm working on it. and about the whole stay-up-late-and-piles-of-assignments things, well... big deal. there will always be compensation for everything. can't take it all without any sacrifices.

well look at me rambling on and on like a certain someone. :p but to be honest, i feel better after i write about all my doubts here. wish me luck people. either unpar or nus (which would be a total bogus dream ;p).

i know i can do it!
it's time to draw one eye of my daruma i think ;)

p.s. a friend just said something really comforting to me, and she really opens my eyes. she makes me see how egoist i was, thinking that it's because he doesn't have any feelings. he has his own reasons apparently, and i should've understood. well either that, or he's real mean.

I Like You Too Much

2009-07-24T21:14:00.001+07:00

I AM BACK!!

baru aja menonton harry potter. disappointing. but still entertaining somehow

I Know I Was Out of Line

2009-07-01T18:51:00.006+07:00

karena kebetulan gw akan berencana untuk menuliskan post ini dengan sangat panjaaang (karena suatu sebab yg akan gw jelaskan di bawah), maka gw memutuskan untuk membaginya per bab sehingga tidak terlalu susah untuk membacanya :)

1. bahan bully anak kecil
yup, ini adalah kenyataan tentang diri gw yg plg menyedihkan. ga tau emang takdir, apa emang karma gw gara2 suka bilang, "sini main sm kakak" ke sembarang orang, tp akhirnya gw sendiri malah jadi bahan bully anak kecil. kasus pertama adalah penganiyayaan gw sm salah satu adek sepupu teman gw, oknum G, yg tadinya gw anggap lucu karena hiperaktif seperti kakak sepupunya. gw baik2in, it turns out dia adalah pure evil. dia tiba2 pas ketemu gw menunjuk ke gw dan bilang, "aku kenal kamu. kamu kan kk yg item!" atau semacamnya dengan nada polos yang bahagia. setelah itu, pas gw ketemu dia di lain kesempatan, pas gw mau keluar dr tempat itu dg stress gara2 ada suatu presentasi penting, dia malah narik2 baju gw sampe lepas dan berkata, "jangan pergi2 dulu!". ckck.

di lain kesempatan, di saat gw pergi ke salah satu apartemen temen gw yg sakit, gw temui dia sudah sehat walafiat bersama teman2 gw yg udh dtg duluan dan adiknya. trus adiknya kan lucu gt, trus main2 sambil bw karton yg masih digulung. trus seperti biasa gw asal aja, "main sm kk yuk!" tp terus dia menjauh. karena udh biasa digituin, yaudah gw cuek aja. alhasil, kira2 15 menit kemudian, gw menyesal ngomong kata2 itu td. dia beneran main sm gw. apa gw yg dimainin ya? pokoknya ceritanya gini. temen gw bilang, "kenalin nama dia kak pampi". trus dia malah memanggil gw, "kak bambi!" trus gw bilang, "jangan panggil aku bambi! nama aku dira!" tp dia malah seneng trus manggil gw berkali2 bambi. trus karton yg dipake itu, malah dipukul2in ke gw, dan akhirnya ngelunjak mukul kepala. aduh untung lo anak kecil. setelah itu, ternyata dia anak yg galak bukan main. ngelebihin kakaknya deh kalo masalah nyolot2an. trus di saat gw dan yg lainnya mau pulang, dia maksa2 gw solat, sampe gw ditarik2, bahkan saat dia masih digendong sm temen gw. bayangin, narik baju gw, hal ini terjadi 2x dengan 2 anak yg berbeda. akhirnya gw ditinggal sm temen2 gw yg turun duluan, (mohon diingat gw ga berani turun sendiri ya, serem sih apartemennya) dan akhirnya gw solat jg. ga menyesal sih, tp dia tiba2 bilang, solat berjamaah yuk! manis. trus alhasil gw jadi imamnya. kafir bgt sih gw kyknya. tp tenang kok, ga sekafir ini aslinya hahaha.

moral : jangan sembarang ngomong main sm kakak, ntar main beneran loh. dan dari dua kasus ini, emang gw bahan bully yg enak ternyata. dari berbagai kalangan.

2. oh no pengeluaran sangat besar
gila ya, kelas 3 makin mahal uang sekolah. trus dengan agak biadab gw malah jalan2 misi budaya ke eropa dengan teman2. memang ini misi budaya, tp agak biadab sih sm keuangan orangtua. apalagi mereka sedang menanggung biaya besar lainnya dengan kk gw yg operasi. berjuanglah mama papa!

dan di balik kebiadaban gw itu, ternyata gw berlaku lebih biadab lagi. bukannya gw menghemat karena jelas2 gw akan belanja byk di sana, gw malah tetap belanja di sini. biadab? memang betul saya anak yg tidak benar. berikut adalah hasil belanja gw yang bikin duit di dompet abis dan atm terkuras hehehehehehe. emg deh punya atm tu merupakan salah satu kesalahan gw. merasa bersalah jg sih tiap ngambil duit. trus udh gitu byk bgt pengeluaran kecil2 tp menjadi bukit dr membeli perlengkapan misbud. udah ah enough talking, ini gambar2nya.

Hardware floral skirt

Zara t shirt with a little alteration :D

Gaudi grey blazer

unbranded green bag <3>

moral : more things to come setelah saya kembali. haha biadab nya gw. bukannya tobat, malah nambah lagi.

3. my babies are dead
setelah balik dari singapur, gw malah udah ga tenang bgt tu hidupnya. membayangkan bsk gw akan pentas terkahir di indonesia untuk pelepasan misbud tanpa latihan, udh cukup bikin gw deg2an (yang ternyata diakhiri dengan ending yg sangat manis. saman gw hancur gara2 gw ganti posisi secara tiba2. udah ah ga mau diomongin bikin depresi), tiba2 pas gw mau ngasih makan ikan di kolam yg kecil, gw liat pemandangan yg bikin gw shock.... ikan mas gw yg kecil2 mati smuaaaaaaa. gila ya? matinya yg mengenaskan gt looooh. kolamnya penuh dengan mayat ikan yg udah ngambang smua, trus habis itu kolamnya berbusa.......... trus ternyata masih bisa diselamatkan dua ekor dari..... 10..... parah bgt gw shock. i treated them like my babies.... tuh kan sekarang gw jd tambah jijik sm ikan. may you rest in peace ikan2ku...

moral : pembantuku... ngasih makan ikan kebanyakan tu bisa bikin mereka mati keracunan.

4. nama anak masa depan
kyknya hal ini emg udah ga asing dilakukan sm smua orang. tentang nama anak di masa dpn. biarin umur gw msh segini, tp menyiapkan nama yg baik itu ada bagusnya hehe. bahkan ada bukti nyata bahwa charlotte, karakter di sex and the city, marah besar sm temennya yang ngerebut nama yang mau dipake untuk calon anaknya sendiri, dan malah dipake buat nama anak temennya. bahkan, nama emma, anak dari rachel dan ross sendiri adalah nama dari nama anak untuk anaknya monica, tp direlain buat mrk. (kalo yg ini kalo ga salah ya haha)

lanjut. akhirnya gw udah memutuskan bbrp nama. ivanka kalo cewek, dan ivan untuk cowok hahaha lucu yaaa. dibilangnya ga kreatif lagi. trus ada sih yg lebih lancang bilang gini, "kok bule bgt sih namanya? lo mesti nikah sm bule dulu biar pas". jahat ih haha. artinya ga dalem, tp harapan gw sm dia besar haha. ivanka diambil dari ivanka trump, dengan harapan dia akan besar jadi anak yang cantik, kaya, pintar, mandiri, punya jiwa entrepreneur, dan lastly, orangtuanya jg kaya dan makmur hahahaha setan. tp gw ga mau suami gw sesedeng donald trump dan pernikahannya gagal. ohya selain itu gw ada nama back up, in case kalo ga disetujui sm suami dan berbagai pihak bersangkutan lainnya, yaitu yurra dan tora! dua2nya buat cowok. hehe. ga ada maksud sih namain itu utk mereka, ga ada makna yg dalam. cetek bgt malah. yurra tu dari pacar salah seorang graphic designer yg saya kagumi (ya betul. cetek sekali bukan?) yg tampaknya sangat bahagia punya pacar dia (yg kenyataan ini hanya gw dpt dr baca blog nya hahahahaha) tp tetep aja gw lsg suka dg nama yurra. lalu tora dari pacar salah satu kakak kelas gw (aduh ketauan ga ya) yg gw jg lsg suka dg nama tora. yg jelas bukan dari tora sudiro! gw suka aja nama2 yg belakangnya ra. hehe. cetek sekali bukan asal muasal nama itu?

smoga (kalo cowo) mrk jd anak yg respect dan sopan sm cewek dan ibunya, pintar dan punya living skills yg bagus, jago main bola dan basket, tp juga bisa musik dan masak. hehehehehehehehe :DDDD

5. raditya dika dan sondre lerche, adiksi saat ini
jujur deh, gw merasa selera humor gw agak rendah karena gw sekarang lagi addicted sm raditya dika. baca blog nya tu freak bgt dan lucu hahaha. apalagi baca tentang kelakuan adek2nya dan alfa. emang sih dia agak lebay kalo nyeritain, tp gw tetep aja suka bgt baca blognya. akhirnya gw sampe bela2in dtg ke pim padahal abis dr citos, utk minjem buku kambing jantan dari salah satu temen gw yg lg wall street di sana (yes byk bgt tmn gw yg wall street, padahal mahal dan menyita waktu. i hate wall street beneran deh, dengan berbagai alasan tentunya) untuk bekal gw di pesawat, berhubung perbekalan gw hanyalah buku dan ipod yg batrenya agak bocor :'( yes gw ga bawa ds karena adaptor (atau apapun lah itu namanya) yg buat memory card ds gw rusak.... sedih bgt deh. intinya, selera humor gw rendah ga sih kalo suka raditya dika? btw gw tau gw ketinggalan jaman bgt, tp pas lg jaman2nya, gw baca salah satu bukunya saat gw les pelajaran, dan itu gw ngakak bgt.

adiksi yg kedua adalah sondre lerche, penyanyi asal norway yg enak aja suara dan lagu2nya. secara tampang kadang hot kadang nyakau. personal favorite adalah hell no, duet dia sm regina spektor, after all dan two way monologue. berikut adalah mukanya

is it just me atau apa dia mirip sm james mc avoy di penelope?

6. the word that everybody seems to hate; packing
haduh cerita ttg ini lagi panjang bgt haha. packing emg bkn yg pekerjaan yg gmpg. apalagi packing buat 3 minggu. maknyos deh lo hahaha. apalagi yg tadinya batas max 20kg, jd hanya boleh 15 kg untuk kepentingan bersama. ok deh fine. pertama kali masuk2in. udh selse, gw timbang, keajaiban. hasilnya 13,6! gokil bgt buat seorang cewek bisa cmn 13kg. ternyata... udah salah teknik nimbang, ternyata toiletries blom masuk. masuk2, punya gw 17an kg. udh kyk hari merdeka aja 17an. ga lucu. ok lanjut. akhirnya dengan berbagai cara, kostum gw taro luar, box make up di keluarin, akhirnya 16,3kg. ckckckk tinggal ngurusin badan dikiiit lg jadi deh tu 15kg. haha 1,3 kg emang ga dikit sih. tp kan kalo disuruh 15kg bandel dikit dg 15,5 jg gpp kan? hehehehe. akhirnya ohmygod. gw keluarin jeans gw 1 biji, langsung turun jadi 15,7 kg. gila ya jeans? trus lalalalala alhasil gw berhasil dengan 15,4kg. eh di sana ditambah ini itu sedikit jadinya 15,6kg. yeah. tp tau ga yg setan apa? nyampe2 pas dikumpulin katanya boleh smp 18kg tahikkkkkk.

7. keberangkatan gw selama 3 minggu
yes, im going to europe for a cultural mission for 3 weeks. doakan ya smuanya lancar. pesawat baik2 aja, ga ada yg aneh2. nari dengan benar tanpa kesalahan yg fatal, kalo bisa ga ada kesalahan hehehe. ga ada yg sakit. gw menikmati waktu gw di sana. gw berhasil foto2 yg bagus di berbagai daerah. shop till i drop di sana. intinya gw dan teman2 menikmati 3 minggu kt di sana. ga sengaja ketemu gaspard ulliel dan johnny depp tiba2. dan berbagai doa lainnya yg terlupakan saat ini, tp pasti aja keinget bahkan setelah post ini ke publish, karena dr td list doa nya tambah terus. amin amin amin amin amin

wish us luck guysss

ROFL!

2009-06-20T22:14:00.007+07:00

just for fun, but this is too funny. (apa selera humor gw yg rendah?)

funny picture
here's another one
and another one
and another one (writer's choice)
ooo another funny picture
this is funny too actually
this one's okay (this one's friggin true. at least in my case, it is)
this one's okay too ( another writer's choice)
ooo and another one
lol
another lol
funneh
there's only one more
last onee (my personal favorite)

:DDDDDDDD

oh FYI, i'm an AB type. judging from that characterization AB people are freaks -.-

btw setelah gw baca2 lg... sumpah GOLONGAN DARAH AB FREAK BGT. clearly i'm not THAT freak. right...?

and another one. life is just a matter of point of view. you can see it in every angle you can find, and it is for you to decide which side will you be on. this two sites FML and GMH really open my eyes. you can either look down and curse how the hell everything goes wrong or you can look at the bright side and realize there's a hope in every situation (and i really think there always is) :)

The Name on Everybody's Lips

2009-06-18T21:16:00.006+07:00

there are certain kind of wishes. and these particular wishes are of course, IF it's granted would make me die out of happiness. seriously. i think i would gasp really hard for air and just too stunned to think about what to do next, let alone actually DO it (though in her dreams she knows exactly what to do).

i know this it's too impossible even to think about, but a girl has every rights to dream :)

please please please let these dreams come true.

1. there'll be a Public Enemies movie premiere in France during our visits there AND i'll be able to catch a glimpse of his face LIVE walking the red carpet.

2. or maybe because there ARE the slightest chance of me meeting him while he's strolling down the street in Paris with Vanessa Paradis or his kids, i'd take picture with him. i heard that he's the most generous celebrity when it comes to autograph. i'd have him sign the shirt i'm wearing if there's no paper available :DD

3. or (again) maybe there's a twist of events that would lead this guy to somehow, have the idea to see a folklore festival in Marseilles, OR maybe... i get to see him and actually have the chance to (again) have a photograph with him somewhere?

and yet, it's just some silly wishes, to outrageous to be true, but still nice to be dreamed

Some Like It Hot, While Others...

2009-06-15T13:42:00.006+07:00

YEAAAAY liburan yg sesungguhnya dateng jg~ gila ya setelah tiap hari latian misbud (yang sangat capein dan membakar kalori hehe) sementara yg lain enak2 libur... akhirnya latian untuk sementara off selama seminggu dan libuuuuur yeay yeay yeay~ ok kerjaan gw skrg amat sangat tidak produktif, tp bodooo. rapot sudah dibagikan dan gw puas dengan hasil yg udh gw dpt. trilili yaudahlah ya bahasa indonesia gw turun, trus olah raga gw 7, emg udah ga bakat sih hehe. so what i've been doing these days?

1. mengingat masa lalu bagaimana gw merupakan manga nerd dan mengulanginya

yes, it's official, gw kembali jd pelanggan setia one manga dan kembali lagi baca komik2 yg ga penting tapi sangat menghibur, contoh nyata nya ya ouran. hahaha. gw udh nonton animenya, tp manga nya jauh lebih kocak dan lebay. tp tetep aja gw sebel sm haruhi minta gw tampar. sok laku loo hahaha ga dengg. (inilah contoh nyata dari ke nerd an gw. memprotes karakter yang tidak hanya tidak memiliki korelasi apapun dengan diri gw, tp bahkan dia tidak nyata. oh no)

2. menonton dvd, terutama FRIENDS, yg ga bakal basi biar cucu gw yg nonton (lebay)
yea yea akhirnya ada kesempatan utk nonton dvd lagii haha hobi yg terbengkalai karena kebanyakan kerjaan jd kecapean, jd milih tidur daripada nonton, or worse, ketiduran pas nonton hahaha. pas masa2 ujian, friends sm the simpsons emg paling pas, enak cmn buat dinyalain biar ada suara dan ada sedikit gambar, tp ga usah diperatiin :D

3. mempersiapkan keberangkatan misbud
yes gw udh mulai beli2 peralatan perentelan yg kecil tapi penting seperti jepit dan peniti yg gw bawa banyaak sekali udh kyk mau dipake smp nanti. smp supir gw aja bingung, dan menggunakan kata2nya i quote, "mbak dira banyak bgt sih beli jepitnya udh kyk dimakan aja abis mulu". haha asal lo tau ya, jepit itu barang kecil yg kalo lo make dan ilang lo pasti akan berpikir, "yah ilang. yaudah ntar beli lagi." dan karena supir gw seorang lelaki tua, dia pasti ga mengerti hal itu.

4. buka site2 yg isinya ttg fashion stuffs
meningat akan pergi ke eropa dan kebetulan PAS SALE SEASON, jadi gw udh mulai ngiler kira2 apa ya yg bisa gw prediksi gw beli hehehehehe. masa kk gw liat di internet ada dompet marc by marc jacobs hanya seharga 300rb rupiah! wow mata dia lg merem kah apa emang kyk gt? tp emg kalo sale nya ga kira2 why not men why not hahahahaha. kebetulan gw jg lg suka nge stalk blog ini yang orangnya sudah gw ikuti dari account deviantartnya yg gokil sekali. dan kebetulan orang ini udh hip bgt di kalangan fashion bloggers sehingga byk sekali org numpang promosi online stores nya, which is good for me, gw jd tau mana store yg bagus mana yg ngga :D

oh iya gw jd mau cerita ttg kejadian di saat gw lg sendirian di rumah, di mana gw habis nonton drag me to hell (yang sangat basi dan ada ya temen gw yg gw percaya masalah film dan bilang ini bagus. WOY gila ya lo) dan sampe jm 10an ngga ada orang di rumah. so gw udh mau tidur dan tiba2 di wastafel gw ada makhluk aneh. shit makhluknya aneh gt. gw akhirnya mulai berpikir, apakah dia? lewat pelajaran biologi yg gw dpt kelas 1 semester 2 kemarenn bgt, gw mulai mengklasifikasikannya sebagai platyhelminthes. knp demikian? dia tidak seperti insecta yg tubuhnya terdiri dari kepala, abdomen, dn lainnya, dan yg jelas dia tidak cukup canggih buat jadi vertebrata. di antara invertebrata lainnya, kyknya platyhelmintes yg paling cocok buat dia. buat yg ga tau platyhelminthes itu apa, liat ini :

ok lanjut. udah cukup gw shock liat dia, btw dia berwarna ungu. tiba2 yg harusnya dia gelenjer2 seperti yang ada di gambar, muncul KEPALAnya tiba2 seperti kura2. gw mulai ga yakin apakah dia platyhelminthes apa bukan. trus dia gerak2 gt, tp geraknya sangat abnormal. gw mulai berpikir, mau ke mana sih dia? ternyata ohmygod. tidak jauh dari wastafel, di dinding kamar mandi gw ada TEMANNYA. tidak. lalu di dalam benak gw tiba2 ada pikiran, bagaimana kalau si makhluk itu terpanggil oleh nafsu birahinya dan ingin mating sm temannya. bagaimana kalau akhirnya mereka mating dan melahirkan anak2nya yg byk di kamar mandi gw? ohmygod. di saat gw mulai terpikir untuk membunuhnya dg baygon, tiba2 gw inget salah satu adegan di manga paling pyscho berjudul uzumaki. ada cerita di mana salah satu guru membunuh telur siput dan tiba2 besoknya dia terkutuk karena siput itu adalah siluman sehingga dia menjadi siput itu sendiri. ohmygod mana gw mau jadi platyhelminthes. gw pun melapor ke temen gw di msn, dan bukannya dia bersimpati dia malah ketawa. good job my friend. dan dia malah bilang dia melihat makhluk yg warna apaa gt tp polkadot ungu, dan itu ternyata tokek. shit. lo mau menambah misery gw ya? akhirnya i spent that night in my parent's bedroom, dan tertidur di sana karena gw ga berani balik ke kamar, takutnya dia udah beranak pinak dg sangat banyak dan menerkam gw di saat tidur. oh no.

dan gw jg baru inget gw baru nonton big fish yg bikin gw trauma masuk danau/laut karena gw takut sama ikan gede sekarang. setelah selese nonton big fish gw yakin gw akan dapat mimpi buruk tentang ikan. dan ternyata itu benar. gw mimpi ada ikan lele gede yg jelek gt ngikutin gw ke mana pun gw pergi, dan saat gw udh berada di daerah tertinggi, dia malah lompat2 kyk mau nangkep gw buat dibawa ke bawah bersamanya di air. shit abis.

oh no gw mulai menyesal naro gambar platyhelminthes itu di situ.

btw skrg MP is an acronym i hate the most. i really do loathe it.

You're the Perfect Thing To Say

2009-06-07T07:57:00.000+07:00

i'm currently obsessing about the idea of a perfection. i know a certain person who's so beautiful, smart, funny, and when someone sees her, i know they can't stop thinking how perfect she is. and i thought, hey, isn't there supposed to be a saying that says no one's perfect? but i think, she is. and about the title? imagine someone says it to you, you're the perfect thing to say. there is no flaw to talk about when you're described. you're just flawless :)

hey enough about the ramblings, let's move on to funner things shall we :D as i've said before, what ever will be will be, and it just seems crazy to me that i've just making all the rants about how hard i have to study last week, and here i am, now already done with all the tests and actually feel quite happy with the results :) and btw, time flows really fast these days, like it's just blink, and wow, it's over already?!

okok udh tu selse bhs inggrisnya, skrg kembali ke bhs indonesia. hmmm ngomong2 ttg bhs indonesia, ternyata gw ga ada indonesianya samsekk bahahahaha. coba ya, tes bhs ind membuktikan bahwa ternyata gw ga mahir berbahasa indonesia (apa ini dipengaruhi gara2 gw benci gurunya? misteri). dan saking ga mahirnya gw berbahasa ind, akhirnya itu lebih rendah nilainya drpd bhs inggris dan mandarin /swt (wah expression yg sangat sudah lama tdk digunakan lagi)

yeyyyy minggu bersenanggg2.
planning many activities to do with friendssss :D

ah si pompy... kyknya gw ga bakal punya dia sampe gw nikah dan punya rumah sendiri. terkutuk tu yg bilang suami gw bakal alergi bulu!

Kissed You Goodbye at the Airport

2009-05-31T10:09:00.000+07:00

Lama yaa udh ga nulis di sini hahaha. salahin smua ke tugas2 yg kyk orang gila banyaknyaaa. gila ya sma tuh kan masa seneng2, apalagi KELAS 2 yaaa harusnya plg seneng, tp kok diakhiri sm tugas2? plssssss. dan akhirnya gw belom melaksanakan resolusi kelas 2 gw dan kyknya ga bakal terjadi : cabut dari kelas :D hahaha. habis ada sih yg bilang "lo tuh kebaikan masa sma cabut aja ga pernah" bahaha. tp akhirnya jg kelas 2 berakhir tanpa gw pernah cabut meninggalkan sekolah. pfffftt. kalo keluar kelas main2 pas pelajaran sih udh sering tp katanya itu baru halfway from cabut jd mayan deh, udh tertanam bibit2 bahahahaha. btw ya gw baru menyadari ada ya orang yg bisa blg "pengen bolos!", trus pas dibilang bolos aja, jawabnya, "boleh2" padahal orang itu udh bolos dlm semester ini jauh lebih banyak daripada gw pernah bolos seumur idup. GODD.

OK deh bsk minggu sibuk karena ulangan semester. bah belajar2 yuk mariii. gw dari kemaren udh belajar mat bio fisika kimia kyk apaan nih (haha ketauan pelajaran perwalian dilupakan. agama, yuk mari. pkn lupa tuh. bahasa... yaudahlah yaaaa). kok bisa ya gw kelas 1 survive ini smua? haha tp what ever will be will be aja lah paling jg kejadian ntar :\ akhirnya tugas aja berhasil diselsein smua walaupun ga yakin deh nilainya bagus hehe (sebenernya ki doang sih. kalo yg ini 7 aja udh bagus, asal ga 0 aja bahaha)

awww pompy jr. haha. pompy sr. nya chow chow!

birthday gift dr kakak. awww baik bgt ya ternyata dia. bahaha

knp byk org yg ga menghargai dia? dia lucu loooh. knp byk yg bilang dia serem dan freak?!

papa don. BAHAHAHA. oh ya ada satu setan di antara anak kecil ini.

mmm haha gw jd inget salah satu hal ga penting yg terjadi di sekolah akhir2 ini dan result atas jawaban gw tuh ternyata lumayan mengherankan, padahal menurut gw emg jujur mau diapain lagi dong, kenyataan tuuh. ok, trus gw coba membandingkan antara jawaban gw dengan jawaban bbrp orang atas pertanyaan tsb, smuanya jawab yg berlainan dr gw. woooy berarti emg gw dong yg kelainan. trus ada satu org yg bilang pas gw menyebutkan alasan knp gw milih jawaban itu, "cmn lo satu2nya yg bisa ngeliat dari sisi positifnya dari segala kejelekannya.". BAHAHAHA itu tega loh kata2nya. btw, ini berarti gw adalah orang yang melihat sesuatu dari segi positifnya. hahahahahahahahahahaaaaaa :D

for a certain someone, traktiran burger king nya ditungguuuu!

Nothing You Can Do, That Can't Be Done

2009-05-19T23:27:00.000+07:00

1. gw sudah mencapai titik jenuh belajar dan butuh libur ASAP
2. dan di kala gw sudah mencapai titik jenuh, tugasnya malah tambah banyak dan numpuk
3. gw pengen bgt ke sea world. beneran.
4. otak gw lg random bgt
5. dan gw lg dalam kondisi mood swing yang parah
6. dan gw lg benci bgt sama suatu hal karena mood swing itu
7. oleh karena itu pls pls pls jangan nambah beban dengan hal2 ga penting dan jokes yg ga lucu serta annoying
8. gw lg sangat bosenan
9. jerawat di jidat gw udh kyk orang gila. knp sih?
10. dan gw ga percaya bentar lagi gw kelas 3. tinggal 2 minggu lagi termasuk us gw berada di 2.5/2 IPA C (kalo naik. amin)
11. dan gw takut gw ga ada di ipa c lagi
12. dan gw takut gw ga keterima di universitas impian
13. dan gw takut gw ga mencapai keinginan ideal gw di masa depan
14. gw belom bikin KTP sampe skrg
15. begitu juga dengan les nyetir
16. gw takut jd orang dewasa
17. dan gw bukan orang yang diandalkan untuk urusan teknis. gw penyemangat, penghibur, dan penggagas
18. and that is why gw bukan orang yg mature
19. gw lg suka ngomong setan
20. skrg 11.30 PM dan bsk gw ada ulangan mat, presentasi yg ga penting dan ngeselin

THINGS TO REMEMBER
~~1. presentasi bio HIV/AIDS~~
~~2. makalah sistem imunitas~~
~~3. makalah tentang KI~~
~~4. makalah tentang paragraf~~
5. bikin invitation...
~~6. print kalam!~~
7. drama audio
~~8. tugas mandarin yg translate~~
~~9. laporan praktikum koloid~~

~~THINGS TO FORGET~~
1. KARYA ILMIAH!
bikin angket...
bikin bab 2....
bikin bab 3.

YUK MARI

I Used To Roll the Dice

2009-05-16T18:39:00.000+07:00

"I wonder if I would feel better if I burned a meat-scented aromatherapy candle"
Honey and Clover

Ini adalah satu kalimat yang menggambarkan keinginan seorang mahasiswa kos-kosan yang sangat menginginkan makan daging tp tidak mampu beli karena terlalu mahal dan belum gajian dari part time work mereka.... jdnya mereka selama itu makan mie trus. mending mie beli gt ya, ini mie dapet dari temen yang dpt kiriman dari orang tuanya yang produsen mie. bahaha

apakah ini kehidupan kos yang sesungguhnya? apa ini lebay atau emang kyk gini? wish me luck deh untuk ke depannya amin amin amin!

image from here

To Me, You Are Perfect

2009-05-15T18:31:00.000+07:00

I wasn't a big fan of romantic movies. it just makes realize how easy everything is in the movie and how difficult it actually is in real life.but with all the pressure going on and on it's just hard to just sit in front of the tv and just watch the whole film. usually i just ditched the film and turn to my computer instead, or just plain sleeping. literally abandoning it and wait until it's over and i'll just turn it off later on. :D i don't feel like thinking when watching a movie anymore and that makes me a real sucker~ and so that is why i turn myself to romantic comedy movies. just sit back, and you don't have to think when you watch it. it just flows :)

butttt. of all the romantic movies i've watched, only several films really touched my heart. (and while some others are plain rubbish) and here's one of the scenes...

With any luck, by next year - I'll be going out with one of these girls.
[shows pictures of beautiful supermodels]
But for now, let me say - Without hope or agenda
Just because it's Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth
To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you
Until you look like this.
[picture of a mummy]
Merry Christmas.

gila ya gokil bgt ni adegan... pasti ada aja ya orang kyk gini... udah sayang banget sm satu orang dan ternyata orang ini adalah pacar sahabatnya... dan di case kali ini adalah istri sahabatnya. buset dah. bodo deh ada orang bilang dia helpless romantic dan kyknya pathetic bgt, tp gw ga yakin deh gw sekuat dia ngeliat orang yg gw sayang (ini kalo gw cowok ye) walk the aisle only to say vows to live in sick and happyness with another man and still be able to fake a smile and make a surprise gift for them... gila ya...

ini adalah salah satu film terdalem dan terbagus yang pernah gw nonton. ga tau gw lebay apa gmn, tp ya gt aja perasaan gw pas nonton ni film. this film just shows that love actually really is all around. gokil deh ni film pokoknya :D

Up Up and Away

2009-05-12T09:19:00.000+07:00

well this blog belongs to a friend of mine and i've always wanted to make her a header for her blog, but somehow with all these things going on i simply forget to make her one :DVVVVV so.... to make it up for her, i've made a simple picture here to promote her blog :D

please give her a visit by a simple click on your mouse here

how's life been doing on you guys? i have lots of story to tell here~ about my birthday surprise (which is kind of ruined in a very funny way), my birthday party preparation (and the story goes on and on and on) and well.... everything! details will be much much later :D

TTFN!

I Am 16 Going On 17

2009-05-06T18:49:00.000+07:00

I've just encountered to a fact that there's one of my friend who's having his birthday on 21st of may. it's interesting for me because my birthday is on 7th, another friend of mine is on 14th, and his birthday is on 21st. see where's this going? there's a week gap on each of everyone's birthday! it's very random but~

oh and speaking about birthday, you can probably guess from the title of this entry that i'm going to be 17 tomorrow... i don't know why, rather than feeling excited, i'm feeling... a little bit anxious. mmm... i know it's good to be 17 and so on and so forth and actually i've made a list why does it feel good to be 17 :p
and why does despite all the good things above i'm still feeling anxious and worried...
maybe you're thinking i'm exaggerating, but it really happens to me... all this thinking about being old, being responsible of yourself, being an adult. i guess i just want to be forever young. forever teenager. i know it's not a very mature way of thinking but still... i'm not ready. yet.

oh oh oh and another list!finger crossed!

Smoke Gets in Your Eyes

2009-04-30T21:00:00.000+07:00

ok, karena salah satu temen gw bilang sekali2 bikin entry pake bahasa indonesia dong, yaudahlah, nih khusus buat lo gw pake bahasa indonesia. tau deh bakal dia baca apa ga, tp kan nyenengin temen dikit gpp kan haha :D

mmm gw entah knp seneng bgt ngisi personality quiz yg ga penting gt di internet. emg banyak sih yg aneh2, mulai dari which sailor moon character are you? (yg akhirnya gw dpt usagi haha), kamu boker dengan gaya apa, sampe yg bagus2 dan (at least menurut gw) bermutu dan kyknya bener haha. nah ini dia salah satu contohnya : The Eating Test, dan ini hasil punya gw

You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.

You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

hihi cool bgt ya gw suka phsycology test kyk gini, yang ada filosofi gt di belakang kalkulasi jawabannya, dan kebetulan di site ini banyak yg kyk ginian, bukan yg kyk di facebook yg sampah2 gt hahahahaha :D

try and paste your answer here :)

If She Wanna Rock, She Rocks

2009-04-27T20:09:00.000+07:00

If she wanna rock, she rocks
She can roll with the punches Long as she feels like she’s in control
(Rock & Roll - Eric Hutchinson)

This song is my current addiction :)
It really reminds me of this girl who shines and bright, attractive in every way, and makes other people confident just by standing somewhere near her.
Just the same like KT Tunstall's Suddenly I See.
I think every girl wants to be her.

Anyway... since everybody's doing this on Facebook, i think i'll try doing it here

My Own Top 5 Lists

Tonight, I Wanna Be With You

2009-04-25T18:51:00.000+07:00

hey hey hey! just so you know, in the last 4 days i've stayed in Kampung Naga (which is literally translated as Kampung Naga. don't ask me where that name came from. i don't really think indonesia has any legend about dragon, but anyway... back to business) which is one of my school's activity. we have to make a research about this village by staying with the local villager and observe the way they live.

you indonesians must at least have heard about Kampung Naga and how the villagers refuse to live in a modern way and thus they refuse to use electricity. i know it sounds a bit insane to think that there are people still thinking that way in this era, but yes, it is a fact. and you can imagine how I have to live there for 4 days without electricity.

first... talking about the bathroom :D this is my favorite part of the story because many of my friends refused to go here from the very start because... well you'll know when you see this picture... the bathroom looks like this

you can't even call this a bathroom... this is the spot where you can do your number one and number two business. well if you think this is bad, wait till you see the inside of it

and yes. we have to aim right to make it fall into the hole. excuse me for the words, but i don't know any other words to describe it. i know it seems like a small one, but somehow we (as in my friends and i) manage to do it :DV . to disgust you all a little bit, i'll describe it in a more specific way >:) . if you look a little closer, you can see many types of mushroom and algae grows on the bamboo pole and God knows with what they feed themselves. well here's the funny part. somehow, one of my friends slipped and somehow managed to get her foot stuck inside the hole and you can imagine what her foot looked like after she got out from the hole D: but anyway, instead of freaking out, she laughed a lot and she said "my foot doesn't stink!". well bless you my friend :) . oh and one more. there's a boy in the group who lost his cell phone twice in the past time, and his folks said that they won't buy him an expensive one until he managed to keep his 3rd cell phone safe for at least 2 years. but while doing his number 2... his cell slipped and fell into the pond D: . watch out now people. maybe you'll get lucky and when you cook your fish, you can found his cell in the belly of the fish :)

oh and btw, i managed to survive not doing the number 2! yeay for me. well actually it's a funny story too. one of my friend somehow conviced me by saying "if you don't do the number 2, you don't really live here!" or something like that, and that saying got me to think that i have to do it. and when i was about to do it, i had put my trousers down and when i looked down, i saw two friggingly big black catfish aggresively trying to eat something i'm about to drop and they succesfully surprised me and made me lost my appetite to do it. bloody hell for the catfish. i'm planning not to eat them for a very loong time. but... oh well :D

btw, i have to tell you about the cooking here. it's not like there's a speciality food here, it's the same thing that i eat in my house. but i don't know why, whether because it's the aura here, or the fact that the ingredients were fresh because there aren't any refrigerator there, but i can't stop eating there! especially the sambel... thinking about it just makes me want to go there again...

i went to the river and crossing the field. the scenery is very beautiful you just want to take so many pictures there. but, considering there's no electricity there, i couldn't spend my camera's battery recklessly. well here's the photo i'd like to share

it's been a very nice trip and this is just a fabulous one of a life time experience. :)
many thanks for anyone who made this trip happened!
and to end this entry, i want to show you my mother's supposed-to-be-surprise-gift for her upcoming birthday on 29th April. she doesn't know this blog, so i guess it's safe to upload the picture here :)
finally! one decent laptop to share for the family~ it's so small you just want to crush it with your palm. kidding~ it's a touchscreen btw, but i don't think the ram is big enough to open iTunes, mozilla, ms word, ms power point, and photoshop at the same time. too bad.

Say, That You'll Stay

2009-04-16T21:05:00.000+07:00

there's always a first time in everything, and here's a simple proof to that theory. this is my first entry in my brand new blog! :D i've actually kept one of my new year resolutions : to make a blog and actually post something.

for a first post, i'd like to mention a view of things you need to know about myself now.

i'm your average 16-year-old high schooler. i have no good picture of myself right now, i've lost the temptation to do a bit of nacissistic. so i did a bit of drawing that i, personally, think that it really does look like me :)

have a very messy table and i've always planned to clean it on holidays. and for about 3 months, that plan is still a plan. oh and btw, my brother's room is way tidier than mine.

like to scribble around with a black gel pen. i like bold and messy lines. it has to be a black gel pen, otherwise it's not right. :o (kenko is highly recommended. good results at a very reasonable price)

is invading her mother's computer, because viruses crashed hers and the invation's been happening since... 6 months ago? sometimes it's driving her mad but she really doesn't deserve an iMac. she barely even knows how to use it -.- i'm not saying i know how to use it like a pro, but at least i'm learning. and from what i've learned lately, mac rules :DDD

and that are some random things about me. and i know it's a total random, but bear with it. my blog will be full of total random babbling. :D