If I Saw You in Heaven

cheers for holidays i've got a LOT of time to spare.

to start this post, i'm going to list this, just in case if i've forgotten about this, be nice and remind me please :)

holiday resolutions:

1. bikin SIM!!!!!!!! gila ya udah dari umur 17 sampe skrg ga kesampean.

2. selesein yearbook... amin amin amin.

3. motivate myself. you're leaving jakarta in august, for god's sakes. :'(

4. keliling jakarta pake busway. anak jakarta masa blm pernah ke pasar senen wkwk. destination: kota tua, pasar senen, dufan, jalan surabaya (optional). any suggestion?

5. draw more. decorate stuffs.

6. read something nice.

7. watch tv series. scrubs, how i met your mother, chuck, the office

8. spend a lot lot lot lot lot time with my friends... I DEMAND SLEEPOVER GUYZ.

9. best summer ever, together with my best friends, like we had last year

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Hello, Hello

ok, may is going to be over soon. real fast. no wayyy i had too much pleasure lazying around and waking up around 8 because school's over. and college it's not until august, so got to appreciate the time i have noww.

well maybe the reason i love may so much is just the fact that it's the month of my birthday. not that i enjoy the day of getting older, but i love it because for a day, it feels like it is my day. well it's not like the entire universe will notice, but eventually, some notice. and that's the best feeling, the feeling of realizing that some people do care about you.

my 18th birthday starts ordinarily (only that it's the first birthday where i stayed up all night), and people wishing me happy birthday all that stuffs. and it's no longer 17, so i thought that nothing special will happen, but somehow i secretly wished my friends will come to surprise me. but noo, a friend asked me to go to the mall and watch a movie, and i was like, "....." so i said i'm not in the mood, and i said no, i chose to stayed home. but i felt a little bit sad, because apparently my friends had an engagement on their own, and my parents have to work late, so we didn't go somewhere fancy for my birthday dinner. honestly, i was extremely sad. well, as you can see on the earlier posts.

but... i was wroongg. at night, when i was watching tv with my brother, i borrowed his phone and looked around, but he thought i was checking his inbox, and he blurted "what are you doing? now you ruined your own surprise!" and, "?!?!?!??!?!?!" i was so happy i literally danced around! and sure enough, in about 5 minutes later, two of my friend came, and they ordered me to come down in a hurry, and there they weree! a lot of them, i even didn't expect that many would comee!!

and what's even more special, they made the cake on their own. good job guyz. for someone who's not a big fan of cakes, i like it a lot <3

i wished for my friends acceptance in UI, and many of them are accepted! i have smart friends :')

yeah, it's that many. this surprise was excellently organized.

even though it's a little bit late, and some of you may not read this, i just want to say thank you. i feel really blessed to have friends like you, and my gratitudes are beyond words. you guys, are awesome. it's not like you fail on surprising me, heck i was really surprised when i knew you guys would come, and there's a lot of you!

and so, we may began our friendship from high school (though some of you has colored my life way way before high school), but i hope we'll stay friends until we're grannies and grandpas... :'D

18 and ready to ramble

scratch that earlier post.

i'm 18 and i feel very blessed. :')

18

i'm 18, and i don't feel any different.

have a nice day people

xxx

Sympathy is Overrated

i don't really know where all this negativity came from, but, just 5 hour away from my birthday, i feel like shit.

just don't treat me like joke.

and i try not to expect anything too much.

what's with the mood swingsss :'(

Burial

"but from her perspective, what we usually take for granted once again becomes stunningly beautiful"

left without nothing to do, (okay, lying here. i've got some things to do, but too lazy to do it), i've been reading comics online. well to be exact, i've been reading Aria. my first encounter with Aria has almost been a year. i first read it when i was having the most magnificent trip yet, the euro trip with my friend. and without exaggerating, words can't describe that trip. even magnificent doesn't quite cover it. but anyway, a friend left it on her case, and i've got nothing to do at that time, so i grabbed it, read it, and i mocked at it. lol. but long story short, when i read it over and over again, i find it quite interesting, and every chapter it has moral story in it. and from what i've read, the most important message that i've learned in this series is how not to take everything for granted.

i've just realized, how i've been taking so many things for granted. and i'm going to focus my point of story about friends. especially my friends. for 3 years of my high school time, i just assumed that high school would come to an end in about a very long length of time, and so i missed lots of opportunities of spending more time with them. there were even times of when i just wished i could just skipped high school. and now what? my wish now is to pause, and rewind everything again. i've always took my friends and moments i spent with them for granted, like those moments were just there, like it's not that special. and now after i've organized my old photos, i've just come to realized, that 'not special moment', was something that could not be repeated again. and how selfish am i to took it as if it was a moment not special enough to be cherished.

and from now on, i'm trying to make every second counts. and try not to take everything for granted, and thank everyone for everything they have done to me. and thank you friends, for we officially survived high school, together ♥

after a long and tiring photoshoot. another moments to be cherished ;)

oh, and have i told you i'm a softball player now? HA. just kidding. this is just a random shot of someone, and hey, she looks like me, a lott. for a second, i thought "when did i play softball?" . ok, random.

p.s. not going to waste this looong holiday, i'm going swimming with my friend this evening. xxx

p.p.s. not longer than a week, i won't be able to sing i'm 17 going on 18 anymore, for i'll be 18 on 7th!!!!!! ok, nervous. i'm getting old. deep breath. hopefully i'll be wiser, but stay young, on the heart, and on the outside. ;D