Heartbeat

well after about two weeks beginning my new life, the university life... i must say i quite enjoy it. it's been a big change for me, living alone, making new friends, adapt to new environment. but hey, i've survived these two weeks :) i'm not saying that it's easy. i've been lacking of quality sleep, tasks has mounted, like woww. it's like there's no day without tasks to be done. notice the plural in the word tasks. i mean, high school was nothing compared to this. sleeping at 3, drawing, rendering, WRITING USING TECHNICAL FONT (yeah rightttt), and i'm sure i can say that i'm sick of seeing lines :p but hey, i'm majoring in architorture.

but, on the other side, i take it as a challenge and i'm enjoying my life here. have been making friends, adapting really well, and living great, alone. (but i'm getting thinner and my room is a total mess :p)

sneak peek:

next post will be pictures of my tasks

Live Long

new day, new month, and new room.

currently typing from my kos kosan room. well not exactly kos. its more like a dorm :p and i feel like i'm the only one here, since it officially is still holiday season for the students here. yeay for ansosness! gonna see many people there. wish me luck and i can make new friends :)

bye old room. will see you really soon.

1st of august. the day everything changes.

Days to Departure

Pffttt friday has come, and i currently am back from singapore. oh and yeah, on sunday i'll be going to bandung. okay, just relax. actually i've passed the moment of panicking to just plain letting go. i'm currently realizing that the time has come to leave my safe zone, and go explore a new area, make new zones. or maybe it's just the fact that i've just come back from the perfect getaway. i mean, after coming back from singapore, i've felt at ease, like everything is somehow gonna be okay. and i really hope it will...

well the trip was great. to tell you the truth, i've been to singapore so many times before. i'm not bragging or anything here, but we used to go here a lot when my brother was studying here. but all we ever did was going over and over again to the same place, eat at the same restaurant, staying at the hotel. but on this trip, my mom and i went everywhere :D we went to the jurong, little india, china town, the universal studios, etc. what make it interesting is the fact that we didn't use taxi going to that places. we walked, used the mrt, and i must say, it really was exhausting. godd at some point i couldn't even feel my hip and legs. but it was worth it. it was fun reading all the maps and deciding what way to go, and it really was an adventurous trip :p

and the best part was: i took some photos with my dad's old camera, and it turned out extremely greatt!! i'm talking super awesome :D . well, it's an analog canon camera my dad used to use back in his college days (yeah, this camera is wayy older than me), and it was stored in my dad's closet until i found it. it's an slr camera and i had great time experimenting with it. it's still in a good condition, and my dad stored it so neatly, there's still some lenses, tripod, and the manual in the bagg. god i love my dad at times like these. a little facts: he used to be the chairman of the photography club on his university, and he can develop films. he's actually cool :B anyway, i took this camera everywhere i went (and that's what made my hip ached), and experimented with tips i found on internet. oh, and the price for developing this film... it's insaneee. it's soo expensive, but i must say, it definitely worth the price!

enough blabbering... it's picture timee:

there's many more, but i'm going to save it for later on.

hands down to my dad, who stores the camera neatly and safely.

oh, and about the things my family and i did over and over again in singapore? not that it didn't make me happy, it was my favorite things to do in singapore. it's just i need something new. and here goes:

1. buy discounted sushi in takashimaya on 9. it's soo cheap you'll grab anything like insane.

2. eat at the takashimaya's food court, and always, always eat something from the padang/chinese restaurant

3. eat at the newton circus food centre

4. shopping at ikea, the happiest place on earth. my version.

5. buy some books at kinokuniya/borders

6. shop shop on clothe stores

and yes, we did all that too. and many more :)

p.s. pfftt i forgot to buy the 1$ ice cream from the ice cream stall around orchard. the price is always 1$, it never changed it frightens me. it's like, it's still 1$ after more than 6 years O-o but anyway, i feel remorse leaving singapore without eating it. i always passed the stroll after i ate like a troll, so yeaah i left my tummy no space for eating ittt. and again, i regret it.

That's What They Say

i'm currently updating from singapore right now... a short getaway before something big changing my life. the start of university life.

can't really believe knowing that some of my friends have already left jakarta... to bandung. and what's more difficult to believe is knowing that it'll be me leaving jakarta in about... 1 week from now? sighhhh still not ready to move on. but i know i have to, and i know i will :')

if i can make it here, i can make it anywhere.

Your Tokugawa Smile

hello... sorry for not updating for a while. but promise, i'll update really soon, after i scan my film rolls, which is going to be the object of my post later.

i've decided to make a little project... i'm going to follow Keri Smith's 100 ideas to spice up my art life, not like it's that colorful before, but yeah. it's interesting. not sure of when to start, but i will start it!

moving on, i'm not going to post any picture of my graduation and prom. well at least not now. i'm not really in the mood. but for teasers, it was really really fun :)

so what i'm going to share here... look what i've got from sushigroove. me and my friend asked for an extra mayo, and here's a picture of what we received

it was really cute, it brightens my mood. and look how tasty the sushi was. so mouth watering. i'm craving for some sushi right now :(

that's it for now, ttyl!

If I Saw You in Heaven

cheers for holidays i've got a LOT of time to spare.

to start this post, i'm going to list this, just in case if i've forgotten about this, be nice and remind me please :)

holiday resolutions:

1. bikin SIM!!!!!!!! gila ya udah dari umur 17 sampe skrg ga kesampean.

2. selesein yearbook... amin amin amin.

3. motivate myself. you're leaving jakarta in august, for god's sakes. :'(

4. keliling jakarta pake busway. anak jakarta masa blm pernah ke pasar senen wkwk. destination: kota tua, pasar senen, dufan, jalan surabaya (optional). any suggestion?

5. draw more. decorate stuffs.

6. read something nice.

7. watch tv series. scrubs, how i met your mother, chuck, the office

8. spend a lot lot lot lot lot time with my friends... I DEMAND SLEEPOVER GUYZ.

9. best summer ever, together with my best friends, like we had last year

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Hello, Hello

ok, may is going to be over soon. real fast. no wayyy i had too much pleasure lazying around and waking up around 8 because school's over. and college it's not until august, so got to appreciate the time i have noww.

well maybe the reason i love may so much is just the fact that it's the month of my birthday. not that i enjoy the day of getting older, but i love it because for a day, it feels like it is my day. well it's not like the entire universe will notice, but eventually, some notice. and that's the best feeling, the feeling of realizing that some people do care about you.

my 18th birthday starts ordinarily (only that it's the first birthday where i stayed up all night), and people wishing me happy birthday all that stuffs. and it's no longer 17, so i thought that nothing special will happen, but somehow i secretly wished my friends will come to surprise me. but noo, a friend asked me to go to the mall and watch a movie, and i was like, "....." so i said i'm not in the mood, and i said no, i chose to stayed home. but i felt a little bit sad, because apparently my friends had an engagement on their own, and my parents have to work late, so we didn't go somewhere fancy for my birthday dinner. honestly, i was extremely sad. well, as you can see on the earlier posts.

but... i was wroongg. at night, when i was watching tv with my brother, i borrowed his phone and looked around, but he thought i was checking his inbox, and he blurted "what are you doing? now you ruined your own surprise!" and, "?!?!?!??!?!?!" i was so happy i literally danced around! and sure enough, in about 5 minutes later, two of my friend came, and they ordered me to come down in a hurry, and there they weree! a lot of them, i even didn't expect that many would comee!!

and what's even more special, they made the cake on their own. good job guyz. for someone who's not a big fan of cakes, i like it a lot <3

i wished for my friends acceptance in UI, and many of them are accepted! i have smart friends :')

yeah, it's that many. this surprise was excellently organized.

even though it's a little bit late, and some of you may not read this, i just want to say thank you. i feel really blessed to have friends like you, and my gratitudes are beyond words. you guys, are awesome. it's not like you fail on surprising me, heck i was really surprised when i knew you guys would come, and there's a lot of you!

and so, we may began our friendship from high school (though some of you has colored my life way way before high school), but i hope we'll stay friends until we're grannies and grandpas... :'D

18 and ready to ramble

scratch that earlier post.

i'm 18 and i feel very blessed. :')

18

i'm 18, and i don't feel any different.

have a nice day people

xxx

Sympathy is Overrated

i don't really know where all this negativity came from, but, just 5 hour away from my birthday, i feel like shit.

just don't treat me like joke.

and i try not to expect anything too much.

what's with the mood swingsss :'(

Burial

"but from her perspective, what we usually take for granted once again becomes stunningly beautiful"

left without nothing to do, (okay, lying here. i've got some things to do, but too lazy to do it), i've been reading comics online. well to be exact, i've been reading Aria. my first encounter with Aria has almost been a year. i first read it when i was having the most magnificent trip yet, the euro trip with my friend. and without exaggerating, words can't describe that trip. even magnificent doesn't quite cover it. but anyway, a friend left it on her case, and i've got nothing to do at that time, so i grabbed it, read it, and i mocked at it. lol. but long story short, when i read it over and over again, i find it quite interesting, and every chapter it has moral story in it. and from what i've read, the most important message that i've learned in this series is how not to take everything for granted.

i've just realized, how i've been taking so many things for granted. and i'm going to focus my point of story about friends. especially my friends. for 3 years of my high school time, i just assumed that high school would come to an end in about a very long length of time, and so i missed lots of opportunities of spending more time with them. there were even times of when i just wished i could just skipped high school. and now what? my wish now is to pause, and rewind everything again. i've always took my friends and moments i spent with them for granted, like those moments were just there, like it's not that special. and now after i've organized my old photos, i've just come to realized, that 'not special moment', was something that could not be repeated again. and how selfish am i to took it as if it was a moment not special enough to be cherished.

and from now on, i'm trying to make every second counts. and try not to take everything for granted, and thank everyone for everything they have done to me. and thank you friends, for we officially survived high school, together ♥

after a long and tiring photoshoot. another moments to be cherished ;)

oh, and have i told you i'm a softball player now? HA. just kidding. this is just a random shot of someone, and hey, she looks like me, a lott. for a second, i thought "when did i play softball?" . ok, random.

p.s. not going to waste this looong holiday, i'm going swimming with my friend this evening. xxx

p.p.s. not longer than a week, i won't be able to sing i'm 17 going on 18 anymore, for i'll be 18 on 7th!!!!!! ok, nervous. i'm getting old. deep breath. hopefully i'll be wiser, but stay young, on the heart, and on the outside. ;D

long time without any new post, so here it is~

so im not going to update with details of what ive been through, not that interesting anyway :\ but to cut it short, exams are over, and holiday is here!

and anyway, getting to the main subject. well, because of this holiday, ive got nothing to do actually, so i've been really into reminiscing mode. you know, remembering all the stuffs that happened. and when i was listening to my ipod, i realized, some songs, makes me go back into the past. so here it is, another list:

(and it's not arranged by date, so... the timeline got a little bit mixed up)

1. Be Still My Heart - The Postal Service

cause when I looked up into your eyes
it didn't hurt at all.
be still my heart

it actually reminds me of times of when i realized that he was something that i could never get ahold of. like he was very far away, and i was still right here. cheesy i know, but it's true. i was being so creative at that time, i actually made an illustration that i can be proud of! heh call it heart brokenly productive.

2. Wonderwall - Oasis

ok, this song is so timeless, im sure everybody must be reminded of something upon hearing this songs. as for me, it reminded me of sitting in the car. whether im going somewhere near like to my friend's house or to the mall, or somewhere far like bandung, it reminds me of times where i thought, it doesn't matter where my destination is, it's the journey that matters. at that times, i sometimes wish time would stop so i can stay in the car, alone with my thoughts.

3. Heard 'Em Say - Kanye West ft Adam Levine

okay, this totally reminded me of times when i used to have this bathroom spray and it smelled really good, and when it was combined with the after smell of my shampoo and soap, it the smell became extremely good. ok, for the record, i turn on songs when i'm having a bath, so that explains ;)

4. Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap

why'd you have to be so cute, it's impossible to ignore you. come on! this song will totally remind everyone of their crush/bf! and in my case, it definitely makes me remember of my crush, back when i was like.. in junior high? well for the record, he changed so much i don't even recognized him anymore :] and we don't talk anymore too

5. I Miss You - Blink 182, Me Myself and I - Beyonce

ok, weird combination, but it's one of the songs in my playlist back when i was in elementary!! god. these songs was really abused upon times in midnight when i couldn't sleep and i needed something to distract my mind of things. not that personal, but still~

6. So Yesterday - Hillary Duff

again, so elementary stuffs. sang it over and over again with a friend back then. i used to remember all the lyrics of the songs in metamorphosis!! (for those who don't know, it's hillary duff's album) i actually bought the cd. weird choice, but come on, who didn't love hillary duff as lizzie mc guire? i certainly do! (notice the tense, until now, i still do)

7. Sign - Mr. Children

an ost of a certain japanese dorama!! times of when i'm such a fanatic of all japanese things. anime, manga, culture, dorama, j-pop, j-rock, you name it. it was times when i named all the pictures i found with "CUTE NARI" or "you smexy thing" . well it has stopped anyway, but it was really good times. and i'm really sad when my computer crashed and all my treasure is lost :'((

meh im tired. and before it goes on and on to the point where it becomes stupid, i must stop now. so call it a part 1 !

oh, and a photo so it's not going to be an all text post

it was taken when we were in a taxi, after taking a busway on a rush hour! ok, it maybe is not that amusing for you to read, but it really was to us. haha, actually my friends look waay in the back in that picture, so yeah :p

2010 ; 100%!!

3 years of hard working, determined in 5 days, the longest week ever of national exams.

i know i will draw the other eye of daruma soon.

2010 LULUS 100% AMINN!!

I REALLY MISS DRAWING DOODLES IN CLASS!!

back then, i used to have the time AND the mind to do some silly drawings in class. not listening to what the teachers said, drawing what comes in mind.

now that calculations and formulas burdening, i just can't find the energy to do it anymore.

oh how i miss drawing, the way it used to be,

2 years ago, when i'm still preoccupied in my own world

i just can't wait for the holiday season to come. i've got so many ideas in mindddd

Trough the Looking Fisheye

full view would be very much appreciatedddd

the best of my first and second batch of using fisheye! i must say, i'm very satisfied with the result~ lomo pictures are sure way better to be seen in series like these, rather than seeing it one by one.

and i'm not satisfied with the long-multi exposure feature yet. i haven't had the time to stroll around at night in places with many flashes of light. damn 12th year stuffz D: so yes, can't wait for the 3rd batch~~~

:'-(

have you ever faced parts of life, where you just want to click the fast forward button, and let everything moves real fast you won't feel a thing?

like facing hard questions on try outs

like at some points where going to school is just plain hard

like moments where you got your heart broken in a matter of second

like times where you're scared of facing the future

like times where you're in doubt of what to do

and when you feel like it, you really want to say skip, and there, you just skipped it.

i'm facing it now. and it feels like shit.

well, here it goes. skip.

Heartbreak Warfare

mmm excuse me for not updating for a while. mind you, school has just been keeping me busy AND tired all the time, and it really is. whenever i got home from school, i always wanted to get some sleep, but failed all the time :| it's like, my eyes were really tired, but my mind was busy thinking many things, and thus i just couldn't sleep. meh, it's the most tiring feeling of all. but anyway, only 3 more months of these torturing yet what will be very memorable moments of high school, and hopefully, i'm off duty.

anyway, speaking of having a life, i don't really have a life. as i've said before, it's been a tiring days. but still....

1. i've bought the long awaited fisheye cameraaa! remember what i've said about wanting to buy a fuji instax or polaroid? well, i've changed my mind. it's becoming to be too trending here, so yeah... with all the polaroid to be reproduced in mid 2010, everyone's going to have it. i'm supporting the impossible project, but i've lost my interest in it. so, instead i bought myself a lomo fisheye 2! i know lomo is a huge trend in indonesia, but i'm still satisfied :D
2. 

   

   

   attended my friends' birthday dinner at pancious. i ordered fettucini with duck, and we shared the dessert, because clearly, with such big portion, no one could handle a plate alone. :)
   oh, and it was right when the match between persija and whatsthename was held and yes, the traffic was horrible. talking about it makes me still a bit pissed of because of the behavior of the supporters. how the hell holding a world cup 2022 in indonesia is still in the picture??
   
   
   
3. look what i've found in my bag~ i don't know if you find it as amusing as i do, but to see all these cinema tickets, all in studio 2, and all of them are in one bag, makes me smile :) and mmm, for those who wonder, i throw everything away in my bag. AND I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IMAGINARIUM OF DR PARNASSUS IN THEATER!!!!!!!
4. and take a good look of what i have been, am, and will be facing. wish us all the best of luck! national exam, here we come. >:]
5. last but not least, my current favorite snack. i usually don't go well with sweet snack, but it's really addictive. hell yeah richeese!

Not Just Anybody

to be frank, after seeing this postcard (which was around mid 2009), i've always thought deep inside, that i knew, somewhere, someday, KoC will come again to Indonesia, and perform live.

and now, it's coming true. they'll come on March 27th to Jakarta. the day of weekend, right after the national exam. i know it's not just a coincidence, it's more than that.

so God, please, let my senior year ends with the best possible ending there is.

(dan gossipnya mika mau dateng. cihi sekaliiiiii ;D)

oh dan akhirnya, the longest week ever, tryout 3 yg setan ini, berakhir. horeeeeeeeeee.

Welcoming 2010

had a blast in ending 2009. trying to keep the spirits up! pictures later~

so, instead of posting about what my new year's resolutions got to be like, i think i'm going to prove you on how much i love the simpsons and post this hilarious video i've found in youtube. (and wow, safari considers youtube as a word)

therefore, i welcome 2010 by presenting you...

The Singhsons

not only this is entertaining, you can find some smart jokes if you watch it really closely

thumbs up!

and uh... will post my resolutions later on.

tomorrow's school day. as much as i hate school, god knows i'm going to miss it terribly someday :')