But Your Life is Just a One Big Mess

the bed i'd sleep forever in :)

waaaaa mau banget nyelip di antara merekaaaa.

Homesick

When people laugh and ask me, what do i see in you, i simply tell them,

"Everything you don't"

and that's it.

via I Can Read

Action Sampling! (I)

these are some photos from my action sampler.

endjoy. :)

btw busway, gw udh milih gw akan beli fuji instax. SUATU SAAT NANTI, PASTI! :D

Take Me Out, Tonight

to know that you notice what is so wrong to me and you even bother to ask, "what happened?" make me happy.

and even though we end up arguing, it's okay.

after all, you care about me. and that's what really counts. :')

Long Long Ago

OKOK EDIT!

setelah browsing cukup lama dan mendistract gw dari yg seharusnya gw lakukan, akhirnya ada 3 item yg gw temukan.

pertimbangan 1 - polaroid one step close up - Rp 650.000

+ murah

+ merk polaroid asli

+ flash

+ bentuk indah

- film nya entah dapet drmn

- belinya pun entah di mana (haha online sih)

- kalo rusak wasalam deh benerinnya

pertimbangan 2 - diana + instant back - Rp 1.050.000

+ dapet diana nya, dpt instant nya

+ film nya sangat jelas beli di mana

+ kalo rusak ada yg benerin hehe

+ bentuknya indah HAHA

- ga ada flash, beli nambah 750k lagi.

- gw ga yakin hasilnya menyenangkan 100% karena gw ga bs pake diana

- hasil2 foto di internet terlihat indah KARENA ada wawawiwi aksesorisnya

pertimbangan 3 - fuji instax camera - Rp 1.400.000

+ film jelas beli di mana

+ hasil nya juga jelas kyk polaroid biasa

+ bentuknya lucu juga :p

+ FLASH!

- harga mahal, soalnya kyk diana instant back, tanpa diana -___-

- minus nya hanya 1 sebenarnya

jujur sih lebih ke diana atau fuji, dan bahkan sekarang gw lebih ke yg fuji, gara2 diana ga ber flash. kan ga enak ga bisa di foto2 tempat gelap. tp kan katanya film nya polaroid udh akan diproduksi 2010, jadi... ga tau deh. haha. dan lagi... biar udah ada film blm tentu polaroid masih gampang dicari.

tapi... tapi... hahaha. gmn2?

DAN BTW BANGET YA, berasa udah punya duitnya aja hahahaha :p

Say It!

trik biar bisa nabung:

ada goal barang mahal yang worth it biar kyk ada perasaan sayang duit, mendingan duit nya dipake beli barang itu.

oleh karena itu,

tiba2 pengen polaroid. (haha alasan)

MAKA, apakah beli diana instant back + worth it? atau mending beli polaroid biasa? :|

Who Says I Can Not Go?

"Dad?"

"Yeah?"

"I think I made a mistake turning down Brown."

"No shit."

"I don't know what I'm going to do now. The Tal thing, you and Mom and Caroline were right, I can't do that again. But now I don't know what to do."

"I'll tell you what you can do. Go to Brown next year. Your old man took the card you posted turning down the admissions offer out of our mailbox after you left the house this morning. he replaced it with an acceptance and a deposit check."

I should be grateful, but I am indignant. "YOU HAD NO RIGHT! THAT IS LIKE A PERSONAL INVASION OF PRIVACY! AND THAT IS A FEDERAL OFFENSE TO TAMPER WITH THE MAIL!"

Dad chuckles. "Too fucking bad. Don't be home too late." And he hangs up on me.

Maybe my dad is a fuckin' corporate hippie, but I really love that old bastard.

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist.

Do I Know You?

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!

The world forgetting, by the world forgot.

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!

Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard"

Even If I Could Hear It

sekarang mau ada yang bilang, gw pelajar SMA, gw capek sekolah, gw capek belajar terus ga selse2, dan kadang apa yg gw pelajarin sering ga dipake juga ntar (ga kadang juga sih. apa coba guna belajar matriks, selain melatih cara berpikir sm ketelitian? mmm. i wonder), gw cmn bilang, jalanin aja. mau susahnya kyk apa, mau ngeboseninnya kyk apa, mau banyak tugasnya kyk apa.

kyk pas TK, ada aja pasti yang berpikir, gw pengen cepet gede, pengen ngerasain aja gt bisa jalan2 sendiri, keluar rumah gt aja, tapi begitu gede, yang kepikir adalah seneng ya jadi anak TK, ga ada masalah, kerjaannya cuman main, makan, tidur, napas, sama paling masalahnya cuman diomelin nyokap gara2 ga mau minum obat atau dimusuhin temen gara2 ga mau gantian main balok. kyknya pas TK, kepikiran, kapan sih gw gede? cepet aja dong. dan tiba2 skrg udh SMA aja, dan malah diikuti dengan keinginan, balik dong jadi anak TK.

dan ternyata, sama kyk sekarang di mana gw pengen balik lagi ke TK, i'm pretty sure there will be times when I say, "gw kangen masa SMA, masa di mana masalahnya cuman pr numpuk (yang ternyata ga segitunya dibandingin tugas kuliah tampaknya), ulangan besok, presentasi di kelas, sm temen-temen yang lagi ngeselin."

gw cmn mau bilang, jalanin aja deh mau kyk apapun itu juga. mau takut juga ga ada gunanya, pasti bakal kejadian juga, suka ga suka, cepat atau lambat. yang jelas, i'll try to live my life to the fullest, and try to enjoy every second of it.

Is Against The Odds

Will someone please call a surgeon

Who can crack my ribs

and repair this broken heart

That you're deserting

for better company

i will never forget this :(

Please Someone Call A Surgeon

not only it's not enough to be accepted. you have to stand out and be the best.

and it's not enough to graduate with good scores. you have to leave impressions.

and it certainly is not enough to survive in work. you have to live in, and make the best out of it.

i don't want to be forgotten.

One, Two, One Two Three

I don't know, i just don't know.

i want to be, where i want to be

i want to be, who i want to be

is it really what i want?

or

is it really like what i've imagined?

now i have these feelings of uncertainty

or should i call it doubts. dang i really hate that word.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. :'(